Time flies

How i wish, time will turn back ..

If possible i guess that's everyone's dream.

whatever did,

I smile cause i cried
I hate cause i love
I smile cause i cried
I hate cause i love
I smile cause i cried
I hate cause i love


I make a mistake, but i didn't learn. Learning make people grows,
but what make this learning comes? Mistake.
Yes, but mistake makes people feel fear.
I know i couldn't stop the stupid fear i have,
but i think i should choose to face it strongly.
Another kind of me, will everyone like it? I don't think so.
Cause it's so .. FAKE.

I'm trying hard, trying so hard. Yet, people around me making me wonder,
wonder why world is all like this. (not refering who)
And that make me think that.this is what life is all about.

Given you one, yet you ask for two, three, four, five, six and etc.
Getting more and more greedy.
Cause everyone is taking things forgranted.
I'm like this too, don't i ?

But things just goes this way, i mean i'll never regret.
Hope when i say this out, you could feel i've changed and grown up.
No longer .. worrying i guess.
maybe i'm still weak as before. crying easily.

What is all about my life, is just about life.
Since that day, i didn't put trust in people but myself.
cause .. i don't want to be betray anymore.

maybe it's just all about this.

Ps: June holiday i'm going back to school for spring cleaning again! :)

Ps: Darling, don't worry i'm fine i think.

saranghamida,

Life is full with unfairs. Perhaps, i learn from those unfairs. How nice if every souls on this earth, was kind enough to give in. Will there be quarrel still ? Or .. there will still be argument between? Then what if every souls on earth have giving in, and understanding, will the earth become perfect? But, things wouldn't go as what we have in mind. There's always some people who don't have the sense of being human, cause they don't have the giving in and understanding.

Ps: not refering to anyone. just some ways i felt suddenly
Ps: perhaps, i hope it'll stop.

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thoughts:

I wish there is someone who will ask me out when i'm down, i wish there will be this someone who know when i'm in trouble and appear infront of me, telling me jokes and tease me. I wish there is this someone living on earth. Will i met this someone ?

couldn't sort it out,

Alright, so i'm here to blog again. At this point of time, i'm blogging for the sake of wasting time, so i might just blog one page of craps here. Hopefully today i enjoyed myself in the community service. Though peoples there i still don't know them as in those senior, but they look familiar, ok it's like duh uh. Well, basically i was there to help out easy job like, shampooing, blowdrying and treatment. I still can't manage well, but i'll try to improve.

On the other hand, i'm very 'irritated' by msn. I don't know why people will ask me why i wrote " Wo Hen Fan fan fan" in msn and asking iszit about my studies or whatever. I'm so sorry if i really offend you guys, but i just need some space for myself right now. I don't know what i'm 'fan-ING' about but just wish to be alone or something. Still thanks for concern making the effort to ask me cheer up, anyway.

And .. i'm kind of mind that people misunderstand me, i will have the rush to explain myself. So to him, what i have message you this afternoon/morning i'm really quite piss off infront of the phone. I think you sort of misunderstand me, and you don't seem like wanting to hear me explain cause you keep looking at the side that ' My feeling is not there already'. I'm really very angry until i really feel like go jump down a swimming pool (is a example to phase it). Maybe i'm so called 'Princess' like what you named me, that you have to go with what i want, what i give or tolerate my attitudes and whatever like you said. ok i can just say, explaining helps, but it's worst that the other party doesn't want to hear you explain.

P/S: sorry for such wordy post or boring blog.
P/S: Hope my thinking will stop at moment. I'm keep thinking thinking . Ahh, i'm crazy i think.

ok, bye huneys bee.

Wondering why,

Today is friday, hopefully i enjoyed it alot. -insert big smiley face- Today we need models for concave haircut, last minute i decided to cut my mum's hair though i'm not willing to. Not that i don't like my mum's hair is just that her hair is so short already, yet i have to cut it again. But hopefully it turn out quite nice looking. Miss beer asked me to cut blunt cut again, so i just trim alittle and Mr ong said that he like it alot! Muhahahas, i'm so happy.

Went for PCS, our SH have a talk with us. Actually, the talk is all about things that have mention before. And went for commercial service, at first i was very 'shy' to walk in or do stuff, but in the end still ok. Thanks to Eugene, hope i didn't spell it wrongly. Anyway thanks to him, i able to learn something throughout this whole 5 hours, i think :) Pretty nice to be his assistant. Hahaha and somehow my 2.5 like gone, never mind forget it! It's just for goodness sake :)

And went home, feel so weak and tired. Tomorrow will be going back to school again :) Bye huneys.

Perhaps, thinking and thinking all over again. Am i ? or am i not ?

P/S: Links will be update soon :)

learning, perhaps losting,

-insert yawning sounds- ahhhhhhh, i'm so tired. Have this thinking in mind wanting to skip class tomorrow or friday. Cause i have been attenting school, and i'm so damn tired for SA, and whatever sh*t i have to do in school. I know that it's a must to, and not only me feeling this way, so i have to rights to complain i can't take it. But this week was really tiring enough! Out of that sudden, i don't enjoy school at all. But well ..

Overall today, i have a bad day. Good thing happen will never always be with you.

Which you never know that, actually i turn and look back before/now.

Good night peoples (L)

no longer in here,

Hello hello helloooo, my air-souls.
i'm just here to reply tags :)
Sorry for those people who keep you waiting so long to relink. (L)
Thanks for tagging another time telling me i have not relink you. Mwahs ! (:

xiuyi: girl , relink me ..
- Relinked sorry for keeping you so long to relink :)

passss: Hey, cheer up
- Thanks babe, loves <3>

SHAWN: EH I LOVE BEE CHOO! :D
-Sorry she's mine! x;

lenz: Nuer, you're crying? don forget you still have daddy here !
- :) thanks dad. You're the best daddy la! :)

Lex . Lim Hwee: ps fone still not yet pay
- It's alrights ! :)

SHAWN: HUAT GANG MEMBER IS BORN!! :D go my blog and see!
- Yes, i saw him in r/l also!

Lu.: Yan chi!
- He's handsome ok

SHAWN: and yeah. you better lend me your labixiaoxin CD, or else no liuxinhuayuan for you! :D :D PLEASE.STOP.CHANGING.YOUR.URL! HAHAHA you change url = relink = lazy = sian = wahlao = YOUR FAULT , HAHA KIDDING :D SEEYA!
- Hahahs, but i got Liu xin hua yuan already! cause you bought LA BI XIAO XIN . hahaha !

pu: booo =P !!
- Hello :)

no.31: I UPDATED MY BLOGGY!!
- Finally uh ?

passss: phew i finally found your blog. Please don change link again. its hard to find your blog link.
- Sorry huney, i wouldn't change it again :)

Lex . Lim Hwee: never just aim for a boarderline pass
- Hahahs, i know the next one i will aim high i guess x:

HY: haha, jiejie miss you too. :D good luck for your test kae :D <3>
- Thanks jiejie !!! <3> wo xiang ni la!

DONUT: ur most welcome Donut, i will always be there ! our friendship is special & it will always be mwahh!!!
- :) Hehes, mwahhs !

lenz: Nuer ah Nuer. Daddy always support you de leh. don say till like no one support you =)
- :) i know thanks daddy ! Love you ohh ! <3>

Lex . Lim Hwee: hello, if those 'friends' of yours alway blaming you, i don't see the point continue the friendship with them.. Don't make friend for the sake of making friends, make friend cuz they know hw to reciprocate .
- :) i know. Best friends afew is enough.

ruayngoen: hello cutie gal!! how do u do man?? i hope everything alright for u yax.. takkair.. miss miss
- I'm doing quite good. How are you also ?

Lu.: I nvb add salt lorh. i add suger ;x bye~
- You did ok, dont deny.

passerby: nice song.may i know wad's the title?
- It's Addicted, my dear :)

Alya: Awww huiyu dear IMYSM!!!!!!!!!!! <3>
- Yes, i miss you alot dear ! when when will i see you again ?

readerrs: Hey, ur course seem like so fun! jia you ahrs
- Thanks, my course can be fun is you like it. but if you don't it's quite stressful

Sharon(yourbi!): misz you badly sweetheart!):
- Yes, i miss you. you you sharon thiam. :(

serene: lovelylady ! tagged yeas~ see ya around soon yeas ♥
- Alright lady, i will see you around ! :)

XGBFF: I finally understand when you say that, nthg gonna change even if I say out .... :(
- Yes dear :) lets meet up soon again ok ? :D

Lu.: than i no heart lah.. hais sad le lah ;x you're really being too sensitive le seaweed ;p
- Laughs, ok la im quite sensitive sometimes

JiaNPing d(^0.0^)b: HUIYU!!! PUT A PLAYER! LEMME PAUSE THE MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! X_X...ur music always crashing my music..=.=
- Laughs too bad :)

nisa: imy too babe ! must hang out one day ! :)
- Yes darling! i miss the life with you guys around :D

yangyang: eee~ u eat the paper,dirty dirty.. :P
- Laughs, i didn't eat it ok X:

justapasserby: cheer up!
- Thank you :) i will .

Sharon(Stingyou!): Huney! <3>
- I miss you darling ! :D

Melissa: tag! haha. my notebook is back! lol. ^^ takecares!
- Yays! i miss you jie ! i miss maple life x;

HY: <3<3>
- Yes yes! :( i miss you la my sister!

Auggy: kukumalu u never link me.
- link you le la! ;p

cher: wuruixue hao wu liao wor!
- then go sleep x;

Lu.: wo shi huai ren ;D
- Laughs, you admit it.

cher: LOL! Keep bianbian and it makes me LOL. haha
- Laughs, x: cool right ? x;

SHAWN: you fought with a potato and you lost! HAHAHAH
- Ya, i think a potato can play mahjong and win alot of potato coins. craps x:

ruayngoen: hello pretty gal!! how do u do? take care^_^
- Thank you. how's life, my dear ?

PIG: hello, Pig here..hahax..u shd knw me lah hor... :)
- Hahahs, it's quite long for me to think who are you uh. :)

Lex . Lim Hwee: anw, don't think too much ..
- :) i wouldn't

940: x.donut arrrr its awhile since i seen u in sch! i think sch start totally never lorh! MISS U
- Ya thats why. our timing is all different. cause April intake

cher: yapeyae, meet out soon! text me la u~ haha! :D
- i miss you la, sweetie. slap x:

Lex . Lim Hwee: Feel kinda like stranger..
- Stranger ? why ?

JiaNPing d(^0.0^)b: wah..ur blog song so make me go back to last time..
- Thanks uh. :)

Cailing: Y sound sad, cheers up, gal.. !!! cya on mondae
- Thanks my little cousin :)

.: hi yah.. may i know where u usually find ur blogskin[s]? Anw your blogskin is very nice =)
- Thanks alot, my blogskin is all edited by myself, my dear. :)

Lex . Lim Hwee: smile more, miss talkin to ya..
- :) i'll smile more. You also ahh !

ahwei: wa... i tag you so many then now then reply tag..haiz.. next time dont tag you le la ^^
- Sorry la, tag me more ley :( buddyyyy <3>

Double Hearty ♥

yet,

i thought i will never regret, but things don't keep me moving on. Keep pulling me back.
My dear friend, please don't ask me what happen.
Somehow, feelings changed souls no longer the same.

Yet ..

i did something that i don't even believe myself will do it.
forgive me, but i just wish .... same :(

changes in afternoon,

my life had changed.
regretted? feeling down? crying?
that's all my life is all about, i guess.

'someone' where are you :( i need you badly now.

that sudden,

Muahahaha Muahahaha ..

I finally finish the show Meteor Garden one. And i have a thinking to watch it again, but before that i want to watch it on the TV. So anyone can kindly tell me where can i find that whole set of disc? I want to buy it! Yes, ok i stop being spendy but i wanna buy. x: Ok let's see fate alright.

Well, today i forgot what i did in school. I remember i saw my sharon today, she is damn god pretty. & went for miss hong lesson, PE and went home. Then continue my Meteor Garden. That's all i think. Woo, i (L) Jerry yan so much ok!

Don't like people doing things that are not open and aboveboard. My head is killing me now, i'll try to explain more on this the next post, pictures ? :/ sorry darlings tomorrow alright ?

Pass time,

Hey darlings, i'm feeling very tired now. I feel so sleepy. Anyway, i'm so craving for Meteor Garden (liu xin hua yuan l) so much. I'm been watching at youtube yesterday and today. I couldn't stop talking about DMS, and L. Ohg, they are so so .. hot. Hahahas.

Anyway, today HCT test was suck! i have to time to finish it! God, but i tried my best to finish it. But well, it's finally over. This coming wednesday is HCT theroy. i guess it's gone case too. But i'll try my best to finish up all the notes and put them into my mind :D As for STS, we learn hot roller ! Yes, i finally got the chance to try hands on the roller and curl my baby's hair! Woo, nice try. I love it alot! Want to do it again next lesson.

Guess tomorrow will be boring but hope it'll be nice!

Meteor Garden 1 disc, anyone have it ? Lend me (!) & actually i have alot pictures but lazy to upload tomorrow :D

No more,

Decided ..

Welcome to, JoyFools.blogspot.com :)

Bleeding heart,

Right now, i don't think people is entering my blog like free now. Cause i didn't give my url to alot people. So hi guys, maybe it's a little boring here, but i just wish you could keep it to yourself my url for that moment. :) Double heart ♥ Just do some self entertaining right now. Well, ok lets start.

My phase test is postpone to monday or friday i don't know, and i need two real life models for STS and HCT. I'm lucky to have my 'family' to be the model for HCT if not i think if i cut other people's hair, they will scream at me! *cross lip*

So i think i shall work hard for it. I hope i at least can get a C just a C i'm contended already. Alright, anyway went out with dearest Jocelyn today.

Well, as usual we went to bugis and shop. I bought the skirt i consider very long, like 2 weeks i think. I decided to bring it home today. I bought a belt to match it. Cool! I'm lovin' it! Hehehehs. & I begin to love my hair color now! As everyone told me, it isn't ugly suits me or whatever. I just like it cause i look different! Mwahs! :)

I met this girl like one year plus already, i'm glad that we still got the chance to be in the same school, same course. I know her through friendster, and surprisingly we could able to be that close. Like totally strangers till friends that can talk about feelings. Gosh, sounds so gay to say all these, but just thank q for being there, J :)

Enjoy photos! ^^V

The rest upload other day or you can go her blog to view it :)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo! :)

Lastly, i still dislike you. Maybe i really couldn't accept who you are right now.
Or maybe our ' Ba Zi ' bu he bah. :)

It's not important anymore.

How long the smile last? Forever?

'Some'thing have been in my mind since yesterday, of course i'm not feeling very nice inside. It's not who's fault, but just me myself. I'm just trying to understand things and everything. Though i have alot of things i didn't say it out, last night. Blame me for that, i'm just so tired of explaining, explaining and explaining. I'm tired of that kind of life, i'm not happy at all, yes not happy. Though i promise myself to be happy, as life is short, but things just make me so tired! Sorry i'm a girl who is too emotion. & thats me. Though i'm smiling everyday, but it's just for the sake of not being a disgusting, emotion freak. Yes, i didn't say it out, my fault. Just that no matter how much i explain how much i say, i'm still doing the wrong thing, i'm still the princess that people need to tolerate, bear with me and agree whatever i'm doing. Am i right? Since feb till now, which time is people saying it isn't my fault? Which time? It's always me fault. Then i rather don't explain myself for the sake of everything! Just say it's my fault will do. I'm not blaming whoever, i just feel so breathe-less, so restless, and speechless. Forget it, no one yes i mean NO ONE will understand me. For goodness sake, leave me alone.

I'm crying again .. god save m.e. i lost the real me, until now, i finally remove my mask. that's the real me

blow away your heart and soul,

Love can sometime be magic, but magic can sometimes just be an illusion

Heyyo heyyo, my camera finally can dischargeeeeee ! Yays ! I'm so happy, tomorrow i'm going to collect it. Well, today school was alright, HCT i wasn't cutting or whatever. I'm walking around and slacking. Then went for break, forgot what i did or whatever.

STS wohoo my favourite! Did the roller setting again, yes yes. But the roller not very good. Went for PCS, and did nothing again. I got back my test paper 13/20. I was quite disappointed about my result. Cause the test i commented that it's easy, but end up i got this sucks result. Sigh, i really feeling very disappointing :( Lu still adding salt on my wound. So idiot right this guy. I nearly cry i tell you.

Alright, i going play mahjong le bai la !

Remember, Click @ my advertisment ohhhh :)

taking back,

You can give without loving, but you cannot love with giving

This is a edited post, i've updated once in the morning or afternoon. I've packed my room, though it's still very messy. But i will continue packing later on. Well i've put my roleplay script in my mind already, i've already memories everything already.

Tomorrow gonna go back to school again, and wednesday got STS phase test and PCS role play, friday going to have HCT phase test :( I'm so worry about HCT seriously. But well, lets see what we can do within this few days then :)

Alright human(s) i going off right now. I miss you lahxzxzx!

By the way ..
Click at my advertisment, xin ku la! ♥

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all yours,

What about today, suppose to go out with my darling donut, but last minute of family gathering or something like that. So cancel all dates, and went to city plaza to get something, and funny thing happened. Not feeling very well, after that went over to shawn's house.

Slack over there and chat around, and shawn's friend riza is really cute. She is a really cute girl ! Gosh, and see them play cards and used computer for awhile and went home. I feel very sick of sitting inside a car. I will feel like vomitting everytime. Such a weak soul sigh.

Anyway, when i online today, this little sweet girl talk to me ..

She's ALYA!! :D

Alya says:
huiyu imy so much le!!!!!
No Huiyu here says:
I MISS YOU ALSO GIRLL : ) how are you ?
Alya says:
i'm fine, u le?
No Huiyu here says:
hahahah im going great too. but school work are so stressing -.-
Alya says:
haha, samee. tsk, wei imy laa
No Huiyu here says:
i see you soon ok ok ?
Alya says:
yapyap!
No Huiyu here says:
:D:D mwahhs.

I miss her damn lots i can say. As this weeks i have been very busy with my school work, 1somehow i neglected my soulmates but my dear secondary school friend i miss you alot manxzxz! Double heart heart ♥ I never have the thinking of forgetting you guys and love new friends. I still love you guys as before, mwuahzxzx!

he has my heart,

MeWithoutYou

First i gonna say, i'm super tired and bored staring at this computer for goodness sake. Today is a public holiday or something. Yet i'm so tired like don't know what shit. I lost my role play script for my blur-ness. Gosh, i should be panic. but i'm rather relaxing about it. Give me the motivation. Yes, i mean motivation.

Headed down to my dad's office at bedok. Looking around, and wondering here and there. Busying taking pictures and talking craps with my cousins and friends. Was really boring, went over to my cousin house to chill out watched 'The wedding game' again.

& well, i have no pictures cause i don't have noel's phone today, and my camera is not ready to discharge yet ): Still staying in hospital happily. I miss it. Alright, i shall end here before i blog craps.

perhaps, i realise. But i kept quiet. Yes i saw it, i feel it, but i can do doing so i keep quiet will do.

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