how much effort worths

I give school a miss today, as my lesson ends really late. I couldn't find the time to go back to my secondary school. Spended 1/4 of my day there.

EVSS

Give school a miss today, and went back to my once 'second home'. That place i use to study for four years, those four years give my life a change and get to know them. & teachers are still the same asking the same question saying the same thing over and over again, couldn't deny i don't feel annoying at all.

Some of my teachers couldn't reconigse me because of my hair colour, they stare at me for seconds and they said " Oh! You! I couldn't reconigse man". Both of us giggles, and begin to chat about lifes and some hard times in ITE. I even tried to hint them, i'm not changing at all, like old times love to *** so much. I couldn't deny the rely on them at all -hide faces-

Fyi, i have a tuttion teacher when i'm in primary school. So i decided to try my luck to message her, as we didn't contact for years. I could able to reach her phone. As we chatted by, i realise that a little message from me, she is touched. She told me, to work hard and open a salon so she could support me, and asked my brother to work hard she have confidences in him.

Remember when she came to my house to give me tuttion, she will go mad because i always give trouble to her, and always don't remember the things she taught and never do her homewokr always. So having me this student is really a big headache. So thanks laoshi.


Lastly, Happy teachers' day all the teachers who have taught me before
*love love love*

how much effort worths? Worths today's

Compromise

Qns: who actually dig a hole to let herself drop in?
Ans: Me.

the choices in life, do i have?

I'm oh-so-tired. I need to collect my sleep back right now. All my mind is thinking about is, (come spell it with me) S L E E P. I want my sleep, I want my sleep, huiyu need 24hours of sleeping :( but tomorrow is monday already, thought of that is so tiring. So sad. My lesson is so long and full.

Busying with my project management's project and my live models for lesson and exam. I'm so headache with all these things. Tsktsk, i think my eye bag getting heavier. So i need my sleep sleep sleep sleep ! :(

Went vivo yesterday with Joyce (ahma) and Weilun (laopa) . We went there for don't know what reason and we went to Daiso instead. Joyce and i stuck at the so called Nail area for one hour, we were choosing which colour is nice, which fake nails is nice, or even which nail sticker is nicer. So spended one hour or more at there.

End up, i just bought a bottle of light purplish nail polish, a purple cutting comb and two hair accessories.

I♥♥♥♥You

my "Ya Si"

I wish one day my "Ya Si" will appear. will he ? when will he appear ?

joey: Am I the first? LOL rare!
- Hahahha, yea. :) Thanks for tagging darling :)

AhWei: LOL.. remember to reply tag hor!!! haha
- Hahahah, ok i replying now already :)

JeNeLL: ke ai de Huiyu.. :) ur heels can wear le arh? haha! so weird de.. suddenly the heels turn big? LOL.
- Dont know ley, ahahahs. Ya suddenly can wear le! hehehe :) see yaw tomorrow :)

AhWei: AhMa<~~> you see her blog.. got see mine blog anot?? if got also never tag!!! haiz.. poor xiaoma~
- Hahahahs, she dotes me more ^^V

jsaon: hhi
- Hi there, you're ? :)

Ling: Relink www.jollyheartz.blogspot.com ^^
- Relinked :)

wayway: aiya i let u cut my hair la. my hair every month grow :D cheese
- Hahah alrights ^^V

HY: i think you should be more confident on yourself in the hairstylist thing. Jiayou meimei <3 Learn from it, dont let it make you feel like a failure or something okay.
- :) alrights jiejie ^^V i'll be more confidence next time ^^

lenz: LOL ! clear ur board again. zz
lenz: ya la. scare wad scare ! I dare to let you cut means Im not scare of the outcome alr. Pls be more confident ok ! I'll train you =)
- You and Noel make me into big trouble :)

passerby: whre the blog that sell contatct lenses?
- http://strawberrymartini.jimdo.com/ here you go sweetheart :)

SISI: girl ! be strong k =)
- Thanks sweetie ^^V

Sharon: Hey women! Long time no see uh. Meetup soon alright! Luvyax3
- Men :) Yeaa, long time no see. I want to see you soon, loveyou.

my fear and tears

Feeling whatever i'm studying now, is not working out. Today happen a big thing in my life, this is the second time i cry because of this module. First time was cutting blunt cut, now is cutting life model. The fear i have in heart is not coming out. Or should i say, i'm scare of holiding that pair of scissors or start putting my scissors on people's hair and cut? Today i happen to cut weilun's hair, and at first i'm really very scare, but i pressed down my fear, when i start cutting, the more i'm going onto the finishing, the more the fear increase. You know i could press down my fear, my tears. But, when i accidentally cut weilun's hand, i totally lost confidences in mess. I start cutting in slow, slower, and even slower. Cause i'm scare of people's hair will ruin in my hands, cause i don't wish my hair will ruin on people's hair also. Until the very last, i saw weilun's hand start to have little blood stain on hands, i start to panic. My hands totally stuck and i can't move my hands to cut. And finally i broke down and cried. At that moment, when i start to look around, i dare not put my head up, i start to think "am i really bad, or really suitable for this course?" I wouldn't put quit school this word in my mouth. Just that i felt so useless, like i'm someone who is going to become a hairstylist, yet i've fear of holding the scissors. I can't imagine and think about it the next second. When i told miss hong, she told me " Just cut, what is so scare about? he's your friend somemore, so why scare?" I just went speechless, cause i couldn't control my fear, yet i acted like i can control, i can't control my emotionals, and i cried keep saying i can control my emotional. This is the first time, i'm fear of something that i'm learning.

Someone just save me ..

blur-est day

Today went for colour lesson, today i'm totally B-L-U-R. I'm suppose to meet zhengwei at 1230, i rush to meet him and i message him i'll be late. Guess what's the time ? It's 11.30 ._. I'm so blur and i even saw a friend at the bus stop, he asked me want to take 293 together? i told him, sorry i'm rushing so i can't take 293. And went i'm reaching tampines inter then i realise i actually meet him at 1230. How stupid ? ._.

Another thing is, when i'm doing colouring, I nearly start without wearing gloves. The lucky thing was, noel pull my left hand from applying the color onto his hair AND my hands. Wow, how blur i can be today ?

Yawn * i wana sleep, good night darling.

Happy

Blog has Opened/Recreate, and it wouldn't that active like before anymore. Reason is very simple, don't know what to blog, don't feel like blogging all stuff like these. I'm not trying to dao, okay? I'm so kind! (bhb ahh) Ahahaha.

Whatever isit, i've unlocked my blog, easier for me, easier for you. Cause i dont have to invite people and you dont have to login to view my blog. So you happy and i'll be happy.

Recently:
Happy with my new toy, Samsung Omnia.
P/s: always forgot to update about it. Yes i bought it. Though i'm still not get use to it, but i'm pretty inlove still. As for ice cream, i miss it recenlty. Oh gosh, i have to stop all thise nonesense.

Happy with my school.
P/s: though have been skipping lesson, but i still able to catch up. I'll promise to keep lesser ok. I'm quite concern about "future" this matter now. *winks*

Happy with my new hair colour.
P/s: Big thanks to junxian, i've got the colour i wanted! And i'm so inlove with my hair of course. Miss Hong told me that it's seem like getting brighter and brighter so thought of getting another colour again. Lets see how then.

Not happy with the shoe i bought online.
P/s: i can't wear it at all. My leg is too big for the shoe, but i just found that i can wear already. So.. it's nothing to happy about. So change the not happy to happy!

Not happy with timetable.
P/s: my timetable totally kill me. You know from monday to thursday, three days are starting at 8a.m. Though during secondary school, i wake up at 5.30a.m when my school starts at 7.25a.m. But when i goes up to ITE, if there is one minutes to sleep i'll sleep, if not i'll faint. True uh, weilun just ask me a question "if one day you don't sleep what will happen?" I don't know what will happen, maybe i'll go insane or.. faint in somewhere in school ._.

Not happy with my brain.
No new idea of blogskin. Really so sick . I gonna change it again.

Not happy with blogger/facebook.
P/s: Don't know how to explain they just piss me off :( i hope things will get better, as in the comp lagging or doesn't know what it calls .

Lastly, i'm happy with my everything now, contended and so happy. Plus oil for my studies.

Hope quitting school wouldn't come out from my mouth again :D

Until

Yesterday happen to turn to that channel 52. They are reporting about taiwan's "Tu Shi Liu" really making

This few days, television is reporting about taiwan's happening. Hoping the places will not rain again, i can't imgaine how they surive if it rains again. Seeing people crying for their family members who die in this happening and they blame themselves to survie from it. Trying to bang the floor to death or biting tongue, etc. Really feeling so heart aching to see them like this. Out of the sudden, nose blocked, tears drop .

People who got saved out, people outside with have the rush to see whether is their family member anot. Because of that, got some conflict with the policeman. When they saw their family member got saved out, the touching sence, really makes people so touched too. Even they could talk to each other just seeing them got send up the bus and just waving to them, they felt very contended. If were me, i guess i will got that kind of rush too.

Hoping the next news will be a good news. God bless them.

& i think, i start to think back the past, and start .. to miss him :(
please pull me back, i shouldn't be like this ok.

why

I wish there will be someone who will ..

be there for me 24/7
tell me what is wrong, and what is right
understand me by my actions or words
know how to handle the keep crying me
bring me to somewhere, where i can let my emotionals out
be at my side with me no matter what problem im facing
when my emergency bell ring, he will appear
lend me his shoulder to cry, to "kao"
stood infront of me, wipe my tears aways and tell me he'll face it together with me.
he'll treat my problem as if it's his problem
stand infront of me, no matter what happen
hold my hands and pull me away from places i dont like.
stand out for me, saying he will trust me
tell me, im the one who he cherish most, and forever
tell me, it's great when he live, cause he could love me .

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -


You misunderstand me, you doesn't heard my explain. You allow people to shout at me, and you support others on what they did is right. You didn't care to listen to my explain why i shouted back. You didn't look at me, you didn't do anything for me, just lock my room not allowing me to go in, at that time i left this home. I left and when i turn back you didn't chase me, you didn't stop me, just let me go. My heart really hurts.

That was what i dream this morning, will it come true? Or it's already happening already?

I seem like a burden to this home of mine, i'm always the one who cause problem or like what they think keep asking for more, are they misunderstand me? or am i really like that? I felt so useless, by crying to myself last night, crying to be a burden. Out of the sudden i have the thinking of running home, cause i don't know how to face them anymore. Even i know they misunderstand me, i still felt very useless instead of angry and rush to explain myself.

I'm thinking what's wrong with me, why people always misunderstand me? Iszit because my personality got so much problem that people can't stop misunderstand me? Or am i really that bad till i didn't know that those misunderstanding is true? Am i really that worst that 8 out of 10 will misunderstand me then understand me?

And, why they didn't see my hard work ? why they didn't see my stress? Why they didn't know that because of them, i went for the interview that i doesn't like? My future? Yea, i'm living for the sake of them i could say. I didn't live for myself before. Whatever choices i made i think of them. Yet they didn't know and say i didn't think of them? Asking people come and tell me to think for them allowing people to have the thinking i'm a bad girl. How cool ? I'm a bad girl.

I'm tired once again. Sorry for being a burden, sorry for not being the way you all wish of. I'm so worst then i don't know whatever. Sorry ..

只想到他的辛苦得你们，有没有想过你们的女儿已经忍到累了，尽力了，努力了。
你们有没有想过，我有多么的痛，多么的累，多么的想死。

has not sign up for the course of love

P/S: if you realise this picture of me is with THICK makeup. Look very slutty right ?
Don't know why girls nowadays love thick make up.

Thick make-up equals to
- Eye shadow (thick).
- Fake eye lashes.
- Bottom eye liner

I don't suit to be a Thick makeup girl. :(

Today i'm tired agains, why cause my lesson is so still so long long long. And i feel so dumb recently keep forgetting to bring things. Especially my locker key, know how important is my locker key? My practical stuff is all in my locker, if without locker key, means without practical equiment, without equiment means got scolding, scolding equals, do duty. There's alot link i know, but just too sick to be forgetfull. Please, i must stay more awakee, HUIYU WAKE UP. com'on.

Today, as usual, HSO test. There's one question asked, " why isit important of confidenticality of good filing system" i was thinking how i know ? Laughs, i keep thinking how i know how i know. I gonna study hard already.

ACT, did nothing crap with noel. HPM god, today the one telling me " your section is straight, and you may start to roll " Is Miss Leong !!! Ohmygod, i'm so happy. and she even say my rolling improves. I'm so happy, fly up to the skyy ! x: So i begin to love Perming lesson more and more, yays*

HCL, is always my favourite and somemore today doing noel hair i thought it might be very difficult cause it's short and i have to apply mid length to ends, but is still ok after that :D All of us seem to be very tired and very hungry, packets of biscult can taste so yummy. Hahahas, went home with noel and i go home bath and watch tv.

Now, i going to sleep already. Tomorrow people from ITE west is coming to let us wash head. I've no confidence in sit wash, first apologise to my Customer tomorrow.

Good nights. !

有爱有恨

Oh today is the day which make me love and hate it. I love today because my 9section got commented "You may roll now" ohmygod, i saw star flying with rainbows and cloud. Fyi, 9 section is totally hell to my class, we could open just this 9section for hours and is not just simple simple 9 section it must be perfect. Lecturers will check where will be straight anot, the section we open can fit the rod anot. All is just big knowlegde out of it. Just today, i recieve good comments from Miss leong :)

Secondly, the lovely today my darling ahma joined our clinque! Though, is very bad feeling very happy that she join us due to some reason, but .. still feel good. Cause at least i got a gf which i think is a super good friend! And i finally understand everything now. Isn't my sensitive nowww !

And for the hating parts is, such a nice day yet Mr Ho Lao Pa never come and joke with me. Another thing was, hate wednesday so much so much. The whole day is so occupy lesson from 8a.m to 6p.m like .. so long and sounds so tireddd.

& Today..

Went for first lesson, wanting to do a project and .. i think there's a group of my classmate is going to do on the topic also. I swear no one from their group gave us the idea or abit of information on what they are doing. So we're doing the same topic.

After that was perming class, intend to skip that 3hrs lesson, but we still went and pulled zhengwei together. So, do rolling and opening section for the 3hrs, please don't think that my course is brong, though it's a little. OK. and went for break with ahma, zhengwei and lu. after that we start planning not to go perming theroy. After that, we went for colouring theory and skipped lesson and went to bugis with zhengwei, ahma, and lu. Just for Ivan's spec .

Ok, i edit my post already. I want the fan to blow me noww! Byebye

unlisted you

I shall do a short update, because just look at the time time my darlings.
Cause i've having class on the morning 8a.m :( i'm so tired and sad about it. and the worst thing is, Ho Wei Lun will not attend school tomorrow i think that tomorrow will be, Double Hell-ness :( But, hope tomorrow will be better then i think, you know i'm such a negative person so my thinking can go very very worst then you think. AHAHAHAHHA, i'm so 'normal' today, thanks to simonT.

And well, today wasn't really bad, only not enjoying them going toilet and i can't follow -.- i mean not that i wanna go in is just that i'm really bored alone sitting alone outside the toilet looking like don't know what. x:

On the other hand is, I START BLOG SHOPPING AGAIN. i tell you i can die -.- i totally spend like near to thousands already. For this month i already spended 130 dollars and today another 65 dollars. Gosh, i gonna stop stop stop man ! i think i cant stop helpppppppppppppppppppppp! :(

tomorrow update agains! :)

假期

Promise to blog in english from tomorrow onwards :)

拥有4天的假期，好像没做什么，假期就要结束了。
感觉时间真得过太快了，明天就要回去上学了
脑子里只有 “地狱” 这两个字，同学，老师就是地狱的恶魔
真是的！我想我还是对上学妥协吧。
可怜的去面对，地狱，恶魔！！！

这4天我一点都没浪费时间，只有今天才轻轻松松的在家RELAX
星期五：我到我的学校染发！COOL哦，头发变得超桔的

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前&后

星期六：和我一辈子最爱的人去晚餐，看戏！超ENJOY的

星期天：到爸爸的公司BBQ！他们烤得鸡翅膀，虾子，
还有一些莫名的肉 都好好吃哦！



那至于今天，就在家看一本最近很迷的书
就是 《S.H.E 的爱的3温暖》 超好看！要支持这三位努力的妞妞们！
她们真的好棒！



还有在家做了面膜，脸又比较好一点了！哇哈哈哈哈！
妈今天让我看她的作品。 那就是把我的白衣服洗成粉红色！
厉害吧？还是心肝超级好朋友送的，但还好不会难看！
哈哈哈！

就这样，BYE！

Wonderful night

Went to have dinner and a mid-night movie with my lovely peoples.

went to changi village as usual, but went to a different place to eat instead of the old place. If were to compare, i think this time round that place dishes will be much more nicer then the old place that we always go. Over all, Thumbs up ! *winks*

After eating, cam-whoring was not gonna be neglect of course.

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After that wonderful dinner, we went to watch "Where Got Ghost" it's jack neo's film again. Yes, i always love his film so much, yet this time round this movie slightly disappoint me. I actually expect much more, but it's not really that scary at all, thought it's 「scared till you laugh, laugh till you scared」. Compare to Coming Soon, i think coming soon it's much more scary. At least that film i could remember the movie quite clearly, and for this "Where Got Ghost" it's so easy to forget about it. But i'll still look forward to his film again!

Ranting: Two.Nine

Movie can't forget about something to munch right? We spend about, 70dollars on this

Maybe we're too "moutain tortise" first time we saw this many tickets. There's 20 in total. Looking forward to the next time! :D


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Reach home around 1.02a.m. Super tired and slept at don't know what time.

P/S: I blogged in english !! cause alot people complains that -___-

P/S/S: tomorow i'll still blog in chinese ! AHAHA.

P/S/S/S: And fucker, please stop sticking gold on your face please.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIN JIA POOOOOOOO !!!

一百分的妈妈

一百分的妈妈
每次只要我有心事我就会找你哭诉
而你，会给我最好的意见或一些你的经验
每次都弄得我，鼻酸酸呢

刚刚你说: 「也许当你转身或失落的时候在你身边的还是中学的那一群 （心肝，鸭子，龙，AhSam， Cher）」

我不可否认，我真觉得这样.
他们对我太太重要了，我也感觉到我对他们的重要
当我不开心的时候，他们逗我笑
当我开心地是后，他们让我跟开心
当我生气了，他们不停的烦我
当我受委屈的时候，他们会想帮我出头

虽然不长见面你们从不怪我，怪我只陪新朋友
但却不埋怨得在我身边~ 谢谢你们 我爱你们 真的 ❤

妈妈我也真的超超超级爱你

- - - - english - - - -

Mummy's 100%

everytime whenever i have somethings that i don't know how to express
i keep ranting and ranting to you.
And you, will give me the best advice or some expriences you have been through
allowing me to understand.
Everytime, whenever you told me i always feel like crying

Just now you told me: 「maybe in the end of time, when you turn back you'll realise at your side
is always your secondary school friend (XGBFF, Yazi, Guanleong, Ahsam, Cher)」

i couldn't deny, i really felt this way.
only them, i felt my important and their important.
when i'm not happy, they make me laugh.
when i'm happy, they make me laugh like mad.
when i'm angry, they keep irritated me till i smile.
when i got bullied, they'll help me out.

though we didn't meet up always, and you didn't blame me always with ITE friends.
even if i'm sad, even if i only contact you when i'm sad ❤
without complain you're still with me.

and my 100% mummy, i really really love yaw.

人类的变化

....

很多现在天塌下来的事
几年后你连想都想不起来

我何不常问自己，我有做过一些能让我身边的人觉得开心的事吗？
但当我问了一位认识几年的好友，他说 「并没有...」有多伤啊？
但我又问了一位也许只认识几个月的普通在普通不过的朋友，
他却对我说 「做你自己就是让我们觉得开心」

但就是没人知道，这句话 会让我很开心

今天同学问我 「干嘛一直摆臭脸..」我真觉得我今天一直是臭着一张脸
因为 我觉得 我们经不起时间的考验. 不管是什么事情.
也许你没发现, 但我觉在意..
也也许对你的一举一动觉得是理所当然，毕竟你认识我比任何人久
以为，我的个性，我的人格，我的情绪，我的太度，我的全部全部
你都比谁还要清楚，谁知.... 我错了 真的错了
而... 觉得失望的我 也没做出任何回应

只能摆着脸，想着为何为何你也可以那么理所当然的让我失望
有时候，人都会说 ：「认识久的朋友最棒」不可否认的我 是的
「认识久的朋友最棒」说的还真没错. 但10个里面终有两三个
是, 认识久了 腻了 卷了 想交交新朋友 却把所谓的"新兄弟/姐妹" 看的比旧朋友重要

我... 也许应改学着去把 喜怒哀乐 往心里顿了
学着不要踏出这圈圈外 （不要乱交朋友和相信人类）

但就因为是你，你明白吗？

P/S: 用话来取代ACTIONs

超开心的一天

今天我超棒的耶！
去1 堂课我就在Playground 和朋友聊天！
我没去上课，还觉得开心
是不是很，坏啊？

第一次Skip课得我
确实觉得开心 （坏蛋）
不许要面对那些人的脸
超棒，超开心的啊我!

感觉我也很幸运
不但碰到Miss Ang 还没有碰到她
天啊，我知道你一定不懂我再讲什么
没关系我知道就好

超开心的我
这个星期五要染发呢！
期待 期待 期待 期待！

5大糗事

今天 我也太狼狈了 丫
先是 她问我
为什么我最近美和他说话
天啊，我该如何回应阿

第二是，自己一个人塔 31
我知道自己塔巴士是没什么奇怪的
但我觉是第一次哦 第一次自己塔31
因为 他们放生我！超气的，算了

还有 当我要回家的时候
就差那么一步 就拿一步哦
我差一点跌倒 而且在两个男生面前
哦天啊！糗死了！

还有还有
去买晚餐 然后我没带电话
然后 弟弟要吃的那一摊没开
我就用 公共电话
天啊！虽然我不是很时尚
但好像很惨的要用公共电话耶！
天啊！！！！！！

最后 在回家的时候
还被一只白猫吓倒！
还以为没人看到
谁知，有一位马来小妹妹看见了
应该刚刚的她，在心里大笑我吧
因为我只整个跳起来

哦！！ 好累的今天啊
我 很累累累累！要睡觉

Private blog

面对事实 这是我的耳朵听见得一句话
我应改面对吗？ 只想逃避的我
感觉真是弱 的呢我
决定了，希望我不会后悔
也希望，朋友能体谅
我也很舍不得丫，但我确实无法专心念书
就因为，他们的存在

还有我所看见的徹徹底底的把我 推倒了
人啊，怎么那么黑心丫
饶了我吧

有人发现我的部落各， private 了吗？
因为阿，我觉得没必要让默默些人看..
比如阿，那些我讨厌的人
我知道他们一定有看我的部落各
所以啊，我只invite 默些人
希望这里面，每有吃里扒外的青蛙

嗨呀，我想啊 这次private了部落各
应改.. 应改 会很久吧
辛苦你们咯!

也许明天会根好唷!!!!

----------------------19.36P.m----------------------

现在是 19.36 天那么暗
自己一个坐在客厅，用着电脑
天好暗丫 变得超级感性耶！

想POST 也不知要POST什么
知道吗？我坐个整个下午耶
背有点酸，我怎么那么会浪费时间啊
想出门 但又怕花钱，人生真矛盾

还有啊 这星期三我就在 ITE 6个月了耶
有半年了，时间还真的不会流一分一秒给人丫
一眨眼就半年了 想想去年的今天我在干嘛
哦，在玩PSP的猴子游戏！
超好玩的，大力推荐阿！

好了 费话少说
我去看电视啦！:)

我还能做什么

我需要多少勇气去克服？
我又需要面对什么问题？
还有多少事情我需要克服？

有人... 有人能跟我说吗？
到底我还能做什么，我还能为他们留多少面子？
能忍得，我都在忍。 能让的我也让了
我还能做什么，请你告诉我吧..

他们的虚情假意我，看了，感受到了，也对他们失去信心了
我还能.. 还能做什么..

星期一 就是明天
感觉.. 真累， 我的妈吖

新的一个月

新的一个月，就这样开始了

不知从什么时候，世界变得黑白
我也变得非常，不一样
决定变得懦弱，妥协
笑容不见得很明显 ，在脸上
接着，泪也轻松的掉落
不在笑，自信也掉到谷底
什么时候后变得那么，没用

也许，从那天开始 我已经不是那个原来的我了.
想法不再一样，选着放弃，逃避
从今天起，我又该如何面对接下来的日子？
感觉日子，好难好难过.
看着温心的脸，让我觉得归咎
就像他们为我而付出的，我却选着放弃
真让人感到太，矛盾了

也也许，我需要时间 好好想一想
什么才是对我最好的，什么是不会对不起他们的
不用再问或劝我了，我真的需要时间想一想

也许，你们觉得我的决定是错的
但你们却不知，当我自己一个的时候，对我来说是很可怕的一件事
在那个时候，你们也也许不会再感受到我的热情，笑容.
我会变得，冰冷

我现在的 改变
是因为... 因为你们，你们的冷酷态度，无情的背叛
让我，看清楚了这世界 的你们，这么可以那么无情
所以，你们也就别后悔，求我变回来
因为逆水从不回流，我的改变也不会回头.

现在
我对你们的感觉 是無無無無 nothing!
因为你们真的太，狠心了.