promise not to be sad

Yes, back to blog again, though i'm so unwilling to. As i'm lazy or maybe not feeling well. Like having nose blocked. Ahaha, today went out with that sanba. We start ranting and ratning from the moment we meet till we say byebye. We went to take neoprint and, totally we're like idiots who put brains at home.

As people know, taking neoprint is like have the limited time to decorate rights? Cause Whitesand neoprint shop don't have alot customer uh, so we were like happily decorating, and didn't realise the time is ticking. Really didn't realise until the last 6 secs, and i saw the time, and i shouted " QUICK QUICK! ". and two stupid idiots was busying laughing then decorating.

End up, we blamed the couple that took the same neoprint machince with us. -cover mouth and laugh- Look at two dumb girl uh. When we're cutting the neoprint we keep nagging and keep saying "walaoooooooooo!."




after neoprint, we go FLIRT together. Went to a near by beach and talk about the secondary school life. Talking about how we don't use to cherish our love that time, we didn't give in at that time, yet blaming the other party not giving in. While listening song by song played, reminding us to the past. But, we gonna live for the future i guess :)

Ps to XGBFF: 加油 girl, remember what i told you ok? Please, gonna stay strong and stick to your choice cause i always believe hardwork there is a happy ending.

Ps: 人生充满着矛盾，后悔。而常常人们都回说 “哎呀！早知道.. 「怎样怎样怎样..」. 但当他们会头看了过去, 才发现 原来曾经 他们拥有着, 任性 无力 冲动 和 莫名的想法.

Ps: 要活得没有后悔哦! :D XGBFF 听到了没?!

used to the life, with ♥

换了一个新的BLOGSKIN
你们会好奇我最近在做什么吗？
最近真的好累哦
就算睡了15个钟
但起床后就觉得
“噢！好累哦！”
就这样过我的假期
会不会太无聊了啊？
感觉真的有一点无聊
哎呀！其实这几天都不在家
妈咪骂我，一直跑一直跑！
（就是一直出门的意思啦）
哈！但.. 明天又要出去了
后天要回学校
还真不想否认
我想念学校了！：Ｄ

Ps：也许人的生离死别让我很难理解，或去相信. 但希望他能坚强。一定要
Ps: 也许我真的很难理解，那人生的故事

就是要 简单

简单对我来说 就意味着
一种神秘感
却又充满着平凡
和幸福 快乐 加了又淡又深的爱意
其实 我一直都想要得到的
就是简单

但.. 现在的我
活得没那么简单

Ps: i'm fine once again, haha.
Ps: Blogger became my long twitter-ing.

If it's a dream, dont & never wake me up.

tired came back to look for me again.
I'm quite tired actually.
Though i'm very contented with my life now,
but mean while, i hope i won't hurt anyone out there.
understand me?
& i hope "tomorrow is another day", this word will works.

i need a rest, let me have a rest first.

Ps: 放弃？
Ps: I'm fine anyway, haha.

i found ..

♥ You know? :)

Ps:
I miss my XGBFF.
I miss my LF
I miss my buddy
I miss my laopa
I miss my Joyce
I miss my joanne.
I miss my 401 peeps.
I miss my uho9o1a.
I miss everyone, yes everyone.

One wish, for the last time

is ♥ING u

How nice, people (ite) having holiday and yet i have to go back to school for extra lesson. But lucky just for one day, so no complains and went back with Noel. Recently my blog keep mentioning about him uh? Hahaha, he too sticky liaos, keep stick me. x:

Anyway,
went for advance hair cutting pratical today. Did nothing about hair cut, only do sit wash and drawing some hair style we have in mind. So .. last minute decision, went for hair colouring as the class 'shao dao ke lian' did my regrownth colouring, but from what i see, is dying the whole head la. x: out come i still love it alot! ♥ thanks to PIG

beforee..

After..

Although in picture cant see it very different, but look at REAL LIFE! Must see real life, cause the colour is really different. My old color is more to yellow, and how is more to red and orange. Lovin' it.

Monday..
went to meet Noel at 10 a.m ate breakfast together and went for moive. I WATCHED G-FORCE, super cute i tell you. My rating is 5 ♥! And after the moive we went to watch another movie, Phobia2! What i can say for this moive is .. Scary. Rating 2.5 ♥.

:) time fly very fast by watching two moive in one day! Enjoyy.

Ps: happy belated birthday to blood brother, and xiwen :)
Ps: I still miss her, ohno :(
Ps: I gonna be strong thats why i gonna wish for this year.
Ps: I get rid of the cutting short hair thinking for now only. haha!
Ps: I miss my chou lao pa, Mr Ho.
Ps: I miss my chou buddy, Mr Goh.
Ps: Too many ps liao ! haha. x:

New lover

My new lover, ♥

I want it, i gonna buy it.
Price: $499.00

i guess

Huiyu's TODAY NEWSPAPER !

Called that fat pig this afternoon, & one good news for them and is a bad news to me, my daddy and the fat pig got shortest-listed by the world-skill something like that bahs. Ohmygod, in future i got ps for free liao. But .. will be haihao ba? Cause at least i still have my joyce !

I finally bought it !*

The first item i get from my wish list. (yayness*) Know what next? It will be Ipod shuffle and shoee! Huiyu must jiayou to get all stuff!


Ps: 你離開的那一天 匆忙間 來不及說再見. 失去你的這些天 沒改變 數不完的思念. 是玩笑還是考驗 我們緣分那麼淺. 好想許一個愿 讓我再見你一面
Ps: Should i cut my hair? This time i'm serious. I wanna cut short ! should i give it a try? What if it's ugly? Give me some comment pleaseee! I need suggestion or i cant make my decision as i think i look not very bad with short hair, but to some fat pig, it's ugly :(
Ps: i love omnia! Just random thoughts, haha!
Ps: I ♥ 勿忘我

Get back to normal

After 5 days of messy feelings, finally they are all gone now. I'm a happy girl now! yayness*

Suppose to go school to meet Noel and joyce, but end up i didn't. So i decided to meet noel for dinner. Meet him at mac, and he is behaving weird today! He bring me walk two hundred big rounds around tampines 300 plus! How great uh?

Thanks to him, my mr blue black found a new partner. And he is the blue black maker, beware of him!

Last tears

P/s: This is the last time, i promise and i swear, never gonna mention them again, I repeat never again!

I actually thought that i wouldn't cry today. As i think i'm strong enough to take it. The moment we have to walk around her coffin. I start to think "it's really ending, i'm not going to see her forever" I'm not sure why i do that, by telling myself negative things
I couldn't deny, my eyes turn red, two drop of tears dropped down.

When we sit on another side, i told my mum, "i really miss her, i miss her alot" And i cried like mad. I didn't know i actually can't take it at all. I always thought i could accept the fact that she's gone. but, i really can't, till now i can't believe at all. I know over is over, but just that .. forget it you'll never understand anyway.

When we walk till the road, sending her away. I tell you, my soul is not in my body at all.
I wasn't looking at ways i'm walking, my eyes looked down and thinking of her.
Thinking of her good, how she treat me, and how i use to hug her. i regret, i regret everything i've done. For not cherishing, i swear i regret big times!

when we reached there, the moment i saw her coffin i start to tear. I have a rush to hug the coffin and cry. I'm not trying to be crazy, but just have that kind of rush
don't wish to see her got burnned.

Finally, fact is still fact. they pushed her into the path that will send her to the burning room. I swear that moment, my heart is shouting " DON'T, PLEASE DON'T !" but i can't shout my voice out of my throat. I just keep tearing, and tearing. I couldn't know how hurt i am, that moment. i knee down on the floor and crying very loudly.

I totally can't live without her i could say. I thought i could, i thought i can! cause it have been years since i live with her. I didn't visit her for 1 year and .. i regretted. I really regretted.

Granny, rest in peace. I gonna miss you alot.
Remembering whatever you did for me for the past 16 years.
& thank you.

Last word

I suddenly don't know what to blog about actually.
Just feel quite messy inside.
I'm trying to figure out what is all about these days.
Yesterday they tried to look at me,
and somehow waiting for me to smile.
But yet, i turned away and do my stuff.
Am i right or what ?
I keep wanting to get rid of the thing inside our heart.
The misunderstand, that conflict.
But i just don't know how to.
maybe i'm used to people taking the first step then me.
& I don't like telling people, my surname is Tan,
but i'm not related to them AT ALL.
We're once a family, now i guess it isn't anymore.
Somehow we try talking to each other is trying to be humble
trying to be fake and trying to be sacastic.
Like i couldn't deny, i'm scare of that feeling.
That feeling which contain shy, fake and unknown
that's what i called 'gan ga'
I have to maintain like this, till tomorrow,
till that moment, she got pushed in
that moment, i dropped my tears.
Is not because i'm weak.
Is because, it's the last tears i dropped for this FAMILY.
And the word family, is not gonna mention anyone of you.
She is the last thing, i could bear of this family.
now she left and i think i able to let go this family already
and from tomorrow onwards, we no longer have relation anymore.
we gonna live on our own and
not gonna see each other for years.
Maybe till the day we die, we not gonna see each other.
maybe we'll see each other, with wings in sky.
maybe when we're in sky with wings, we still act as if
we don't know each other.

& these are my last words, hope it'll send to someone's heart
to get some understanding for myself, and
give me a tight hug telling me the conflict is gone.
how i wish i'm living in fairy tales.
maybe like cinderalla, she got bullied by step mother/sister
but she live happily ever after.
Will huiyu live happily ever after too?

hopes,
God bless us.

P/s: happy birthday jeff
P/s: happy belated birthday ivan

心情

心情

我现在

的心情 很激动

接到电话时

我真的无法相信

我怎么也想不到

事情发生的那么快

那么的突然

去到那里

他们 叫我们

一楼一楼的爬上楼梯

到了门口

我的心

突然跳动得很快

就像是

心就要跳出来一样

当我看见她躺在那里

一动也不动的躺在那里

靜靜的在睡着

那时的我不停的问自己

那位躺在那里面的是她吧？

是她没错吧？

心情可以说是掉到了谷底

已经1年2个月了

1年2个月

我没看见她

没听到她的声音了

现在

再也听不到了

他们叫我们

再看她最后一面

当我看了她一秒

眼眶都红了

她变得好焦脆

好瘦

真的要蓋棺了

你都不知道这一刻

我有多多多多多难过

就像宣判着

真的要说掰掰了

真的再也都看不见了

再也看不到她真实的脸了

只能在照片里

看着那灵堂的

那模糊的照片

我看了这一切发生

如果那时

她没搬出去

依然在我们的家

会有不一样的结果吗？

到了现在

我.. 不可否认

我.. 真的好想念她

我真的很不喜欢

那种感觉

就是穿着白衣黑裤

去的地方

就是伤势

我的心情.. 好乱好烦ㄚ

just for the sake of

OHNO, NO NO NO NO NO !

Huiyu got something wrong in the brain, thinking some wire connect wrongly.
Thursday become Friday, Friday become Saturday &
Saturday become sunday!
How seriously is my brain working?

Lets talk about weekends,
i spend my weekends at home, just for the sake of not wasting money.
So i stay at home helping a stupid boy,
to change his msn and add all his friends back.
I think i'm a great person, dont i ?

this is how i spend my weekends, what about you ?

P/s: i'm tired, but can't get to sleep. save me save me!

P/s: 富豪刑事II is nice :)

聽到

我是怎么了我？

是病了吧？

还是快要发疯了？

怎么一点一点事

就靠在人家的肩膀大哭了起来

今天那，那位是我吧？

是我对吧？

我到底怎么了？

从来都没这样，

今天才发现自己

弱，弱翻了我！

还有变得，不像样！

最近实习室，的储藏室

变成我的避难所！

真是了不起的我

一直在哭得我

不停的找麻烦的我

讨人厌的我

因该让人觉得很受不了吧？

很受不了，对吧？
其实，我开始很受不了自己了.

希望，我不要那么弱了。

今天的我 超衰的！〉；（

就..　这样吧。

我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。　在逃避

知道吗？！

懂吗？　　

090909

: o9o9o9

I love no.9! and today is o9o9o9., my blog is 9 letters & my handphone number starting with the no.9 ! Ahaha, so lame. ok ! *slap self* ;)

what a nice number today, o9o9o9 but it's my coloring exam today. It's really a waste man, but lucky my model was simin at least we lost contact for so long and we still able to catch up with each other again. I able to finish on time and because of the stupid butterfly clip causes some hair dye got removed!

We home with her and have mac for dinner. We were chatting about some things that happen when we ain't contacting. How cool that i didn't know so much, and looks really can't compare with heart yea.

P/s: I want to buy alot of things!

P/s: Pucca ♥ Gura!

P/s: Ivan's birthday, Jeffrey's birthday, Junkiat's birthday, Huanchoon's birthday, Simin's birthday, Daddy's birthday & my birthday is coming! :D

P/s: School is B-O-R-E-D

save my heart, hero

That night i got throw to be alone, sitting on a wooden chair all by myself. No one came to entertain me and i was just sitting on the chair and looking at people giggling with jokes.

Out of the sudden, he walk towards me and he used that pair of eyes to look at me, gently told me, " don't be sad alright? i'll be here , no matter whoever isn't there with you, at least you know i'm here." I couldn't deny, after hearing i smiled and i have all my sadness off. and he is my boyfriend again, after that night.
































and i woke up and brush teeths, but will it happen ?
I want my Mr.Garu now :(

i.. my

My new lover ! Pucca ♥
mwahs*

then what is my intention?

我走在左边你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的无声的冒险

我走过晴天阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远永远在你左手边

willing just be one

I.. i..


I really hate the weather recently :( I'm sweating FOC, my goodness.



My class went Army Open House today. We got was so blured to see alot of our school people is queueing for the bus to pick them up, as we were told that there's only 4 class going. Hopefully, their going didn't make any differents, at least it's better to see more CE people around right? ;)

Remember during secondary school, whenever my school have a outing/trip to somewhere, the bus will definity be a good place for me to cam-whore. But this time round, i didn't cam-whore much, as i've those kind of "Car/Bus Sick" -.- Killing me big times when i smell the bus. I think the older i grow, the sickness getting worst and worst. And can you imagine i were going take a small nap to minimize my Car/Bus Sickness yet all thanks for Mr.Fake Wang Lee Hong, he didn't help me to decrease the sickness yet increase them, keep disturbing me from sleep and keep trying to open my eyes. Tsk.

Basically, what we did there was ..


1) The guys tried out some of the things there like the gun thingy and some other things. The gun thingy was the only one i remember x:

2) Bluring with the teachers. The teachers who took us there were really blur, shes will start to look around looking at where are the people going or even where to go next. So she bring us here and there and hopefully, we're not lost in the Army camp.

3) Finding place for air-con, you know we have to stand under the hot sun to look around about the Army cars and etc. It might be very interesting to some guys, but i really don't know what we girls are there for, though it's quite a good experience.









4) Slack round, take pictures and drink water. Water is the best friend of mine today, i mean everyday, just that today water save my day. If not i think i'll faint at the Army camp tdoay.

& For those who never come today, i can only say "Clever !" :(


P/s: under the hot sun, my hair is this bright. Now is fading already, as in fade darkers.



P/s: Thanks darling for the butter cookie. It's tasty, mwahs*

P/s:A new taiwan male singer is born, he's Chen Nian Rong. His piano is really great, *thumbs up*. Hope there's more and more great singer will born soon :)