I know today will come, i know these days will come.
When i start blaming people taking me to compare with him,
actually i slowly start to compare myself with him.
Couldn't deny, I'm jealous of what kind of love he got.
And i was like being ignore aside becuae of the 3 letters.
But sometimes i wish to tell those adults how hurt is it to be put together to compare.
Everyone had a choice but i don't.
I choose to pick up the course I like, but end of the day, actually no one supported me.
When my hair show, all i remember is, no one is sitting there, supporting me, only my friends.
When i score good in the exam, no one actually told me "You did great, work harder"
When i got into the scholar ship, 2 out of 10, no one actually feel proud of it.
When i'm crying like an idiot typing this, no one is beside me wiping my tears off.


But..
when he gets his result, why must i always place together with him?
Why must they tell me, how proud they feel.
Do they ever think of me? Do they ever think that actually insult me,
making me feel even useless? I always think why i wasn't him. why i wasn't the one
i make them feel proud of?

actually felt very happy for him, because of that awesome result.
but now, i dislike that ugly certificate of his.


they never know, and forever won't know,
How much tears i drop because of their over bias towards him,
How much hurt they bring to me, because of their over bias towards him.

Yes, they gave me whatever I want, they dotes me.
But the one thing i always wanted, i always wish to have,
they never once given me before..

PS: i always hate the day we get our report book back. Cause no matter how well i score
no matter i get the first in class, I will always not be the one they are proud of..

&it goes on and on and on..

Less then 3 weeks to CNY!!

:D



One more month to Valentines day! :-*

I'm so looking forward to everything coming, Especially when my long hair comes back to me! :)

Love the whether today. I wish to see him later on too ♥

Joke

PS: I couldn't get to say all this through phone last night, but i hope you know that I'm worrying about you, that's why I actually text you almost every week. I just hope your surgery will be fine. Cause all i wish to see is a normal you just like years ago i met you. ♥ Stay strong, my dearest.


PSS: Don't wish to be emotional. :)

Let's have some sandwiches.... JOKE :-)

Boy: Make a C with your right hand .
Girl: okayy .*makes a C.*
Boy: *smiles and makes c with his left hand, placing it near hers.*
Girl: A heart?
Boy: no . my stomach. and its empty, make me a sandwich.

-.-

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& I LOVE THIS TO THE MAX.
"Oh your dating my ex? Cool. Im eating a sandwhich.... You want those leftovers too? "

Aww, hunney this apply to everyone of us, so I ain't offending anyone :)

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*boy whispers to his mom during a wedding*
boy: "Mommy?"
mom: "What?"
boy: "Why is the girl dressed in white?"
mom: "Because this is the happiest day of her life."
boy: "... so why is the boy dressed in black?"

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It's not that I hate you.. it's just, put it this way. if you were on fire and i had water, I'd drink it.

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Going bed, good night ♥

Something to change..

I'm so going to change my hair color for goodness sake. I feel so sick that my friend ACTUALLY don't recognize me when they pass by me (with black hair) Can you imagine? Like for example, that day i saw a group of friends and they actually call huixin and talk to her, and they just IGNORE me. I mean they don't even look at me thinking I'm somebody else. Until i say "HEY HELLO?!" then they realize I'm actually me standing beside her, How sad is that? Suck so much man! *thumbsdownnnnn*

Negative

I'm so.....
Negative now.