you doesn't understand

Today, 3April.
-My day ain't good at all.

Wish things can be better for me, i'm trying very hard.
I really do. After all, we doesn't belong together.

Pain pain pain plus pain.
cry, cry ,cry and cry, just to wash those pain away.
but it doesn't work, cause i tried before.

No mood to update people~
tonight, going to have dinner with cousin.
celebrating mother's day at 138 tampines area.
hais, i don't feel like going at all, seriously.

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today, 2may
-Happy birthday, Simin darlinqq.
Happy 2year, 7 month

No more relationship, no more love boyfriend/hubby.
He doesn't belongs to mine anymore. Yes, i'm single single singlee!
Believe your eyes (': I believe i can over come myself. Trust me people,
I will be alright after sometimes. don't worry, i'm no longer that immature
huiyu. Remember, huiyu is strong (or maybe not) let me be alone for some
time, and i'm sure, i can find back my smile, for you people.

Today ain't my day yea? me and darlinqq de anniversary, me and him broke off
and it's on darlinqq's birthday. it's okay la, cause it's fated to be like this.
i told my parents about the breaking off, and my mum told me she and dad's story.
They was once couple, after 7 years, they patch back. Ohmy, what a nice
relationship. okay, enough of those "relationship" after all it's all just
a blank paper. whatever~

To the beloved him,
i understand and i know whatever you're thinking right now.
and please, it's not your fault. a relationship, a teenage relationship,
it wouldn't be forever. So doesn't have to blame yourself and tell
me those stuff (': now i'm your buddy, friend , sister or whatever.
You can just put your trust on me(if you need).
Just remember me as a friend, wells, takecare yourself and all the best,
my lover. Doesn't have to feel guilty please ! (': cause i'll be alright.

- lost in tears.
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Today , 1May.
- my smile can make your day? i'm willing.

today i fight with maths again, and i just win by abit.
(can you understand?) and just have to say, i just ain't good in maths.
Think for me please, it have been 2 years i didn't study for maths.
everytime when i take back my report book is Red line for maths

and i sit down and face maths for about, 5 hours.
ohmygod, i must be crazy or something. (although i am already)
i can understand those question, and i know how to do.
but once i think " oh shyt ! tomorrow is maths paper already "
my mind goes blank la. okays, just prepare i'll fail tomorrow.
Today thankyou, xingan and xinganfu. They help me alot yea?
especially xingan la, she help me alot please. i just hope i wouldn't
disappoint you all ):

we study at the same place, tampines mart macdonalds.
and we study about, 4 hours there. the manager came to chase us away.
some people complain that they doesn't have seats. Nevermindd,
so we went to kopitiam and study.

laugh please, first time see people go kopitiam study right? yes, we
are the first one. and xinganfu start to see my paper spot out those mistake
and call me redo, redo ,redo.! but he is good enough, cause he teach me
how to do. okays, i have some confident to pass, but 95 % is fail de.
(cryyyyyyyyyyyys) so i prepare to fail tomorrow and thats it!

i have to apologise to darlinqq that i didn't go to study with her today.
due to some special reason. Sorry girl, i'll meet you oout and study again,
okays? :]

one more days to maths paper - wish me all the best ):

To Lee teck sheng augustine : Sorry.
My exam is here,
but always remember you ain't alone. I promise you
i'll still be here when you need me.
You're love is mine ! <3 ring me up no matter what time is it.
I'll always pick up! Love you, my precious.

- give me and yourself a chance. I have not put in my 100%
Don't leave, cause i still love you as before, even more than that.
I hope it isn't too late, i still want to be the girl you love.
I still hope to be your precious one.