Today, 30April.
- unknown, he is my lover.

Today is my bad luck day.
My pencil box is stolen for 1 hrs and 30 mins i think.
Okays let me explain the whole thing.
My first paper started at about , 8 to 9.40 ? ohgosh
that paper was kinda easy. and it's my break time.

Anddd (my pencilbox is going to be stolen) Okays, now
i call huan choon and co. to takecare my pencil box.
when i come back, i really didn't realise that my pencil box is gone!
And huan choon and co. went back to class. i walk around school
and i realise MY PENCIL BOX ISN'T WITH ME. i went to canteen
and i didn't saw my pencil box.

Oh nvmm, i went up to huan choon's class, and they tell me
they didn't take and i went to junkiat's class, and he give me
that idiot look, he look at me like innocent.! Ohmyg.
(causing me to burn) And i went up to huan choon's class again.
they tell me is junkiat take okay, now i go back to
junkiat's class and i feel very irritating! & junkiat keep giving me
that idiot look! make me burn like need fire man to blow the fire off.
rolfs~

And well, i go back to class and have my exam. english paper 2.
Ohmygod, the paper i totally no mood do, cause my pencil box.
i can't work without my pencil all over my table.

and i cried and cried and i done with my paper and i have confident to fail.
okay, i really don't have mood lahxs! And i prepare to go out of school and
scold junkiat. cause if im wrong, my pencil box is he take.
And i went out, huan choon's friend give me back my pencilbox
Lucky he give it to me. Or i go home sure scold junkiat like hell!

Okays, so my pencil box is missing in action for hours plus !
Please keep your pencil box inside your bag. Don't let people take care
your stuff! Cause they will like keep inside their bag and bring it back to class.

Okays, good bye people!
I'm going self studying! :]

-seriously i feeling ain't good.
pain is the reason, hurt is the fear, understanding is the mistake
sorry is the word i'm gona say again.

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Today, 29April.
- tell me, love will be always there.

Jumps* today is pinky mood.
I swear that everything is going pretty fine.
but not for something, kinda angry and piss off.
I just don't understand. Okays, today maybe going study.
Let see what will happen and today happen alot of things in school,
Fighting, cutting hand with pen knife or something.

Seriously for girls out there, who is viewing my blog and your
hands is full with cuts using penknife or something.
i tell you something, the thing you're doing now is the most stupid
and idiot things ever (although once i am one) i bet there's other
things better than cutting yourself right? actually things doesn't goes
so bad until you really have to cut yourself , -.- Please think for your parents
at home. Be mature ! come on, girls.

and you know something? Remember that guy who say me racist?
(sorry that i have to say about him almost everyweek which i doesn't
like to) He today, ask me for sweet again, don't you feel is very stupid -.-
Sorry my classmate for offending him as your friend. But seriously
i guess he doesn't worth my respect as a friend and totally i can't
forgive him.

I tried very hard, the more i see him, the more i'm burning.
And miss heng call me to sit down and talk to him, oh please,
this kind of person, doesn't even fit to be my friend. Don't doubt, i'm talking
about imran! You can go complain or whatever. It's doesn't matter to me.
Cause he isn't my friend. Even he say sorry, i wouldn't forgive.

(starting to burn) and think for me, stand at the view i am standing.
you just imagine people say you liar, which you didn't lie and if you did,
is all because of their good. You will think like what the fuck right?
and it's his/her fault , but he/she is pushing the blame on you.
Understand lah! I can't imagine okay. Ohmy.
please be proud that i mention you almost everyweek in my post.

IMRAN, I HATE YOU TO MAX LA SIAL

Blah, dont feel like talking much anymore. It's ridiculous.
i'm so angry now! (burning!)

today studying was really great!
i learn alot of things, maybe will stay at home study tomorrow :]
Okay, i going to watch Ah Long PTE LTD with junkiat :D




OHH ! My shotting skill is so good X:
(Buayhiaobieeee!)

i miss lee teck sheng augustine alot please

- hold my hands, run with me
i'm willing to keep walking this path with you.

Today, 28April.
- when i smiled, finally it shows i'm kinda sad.
It's risk it's fear , i admit i'm scare.
Love ain't sin.

today was pretty fine today.
my phone just drop on the floor during my english lesson.
I've tried to save it from droping, but it's too late.
my heart just so pain inside.
I wonder sometimes, when people drop or throw their gagets aside,
wouldn't they feel pain, ohmgod, i totally can't make it.

(understand my lauguage) this few days i just love to say this so much.
Don't know why. Okays, today over all, i just so enjoy.
Slackking the whole day. w/o studying. oh huiyu ah huiyu,
mid-year-examination is here, you have to buck up!
Okays, i shall just take a Egg for maths. I have no confident i can pass.
Well, nbermind. i prepared to fail.

Just sentance me death, i can just go bang the wall la!
All subject i have abit confident to pass but not maths!
Totally 0% of chance passing. If pass, it's miricals.
Blahhhhs~

went to study just now, ohmyt. it's totally killing my brain.
I'm going to bang the wall and die! I think i just give up maths,
i'm not good at it okay! -.- But still have to study hard.
cause i promise alot people, i'll try to pass.

Okays, i understand abit today. But not alot.

i'm gona have a nice sleep tonight, good bye night :]
- you're so missed, i swear.

I HATE COPY CATS TILL MAX!
you dont have to feel bad if you didn't copy me
copy cats make me feel like slapping them.
just go and eat shit lahs! stop bullshiting as if you are me la!
You don't even act like me. don't learn the way i speak and talk
or even everything! I hate your rubbish copying!
Just to warn you people, STOP COPYING!

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Today, 27April.
- 3rd month anniversary.

Understanding a fact, make people grow up.
learn from mistake. love makes me goes crazy.

today i realise i grown up alot (although still a small girl)
but at least, i learn alot from all my relationships.
I learn to understand, learn to think for others ,
learn how to be strong and learn what's happiness.
this and everything need courage to learn.
but we never realise actually giving up is also a courage.

I'm going nuts! Arghs, Today is me and boyfriend's 3rd month anniversary.
Not bad rights ? hahas, but today he ruin my plan.
I suppose to be there at 1, but 12 plus, he message me that
he is going to reach soon (the fact he is still at home) and i message duck
call him wake up and call darlinqq ask her how.
walao, i'm like.. crazy or something, and i meet xingan, slacked with
her awhile and i went to safra to meet heihei and simin. When we reach there,
i hide somewhere, and the plan is totally ruin -.- Boyfriend should sit facing
the wall mahs! Ohmys, but it's okay. he nearly got tricked.
On the fone he still tell me, "i got a type of feeling, it's all a suprize.
Clever harrrrrrrrrrrr!

& we went to tmart to eat, and they go smoke.
After that i went to pat-tor with boyfriend. we walk here & there.
Like funny lahxsx! Well and we meet heihei and co. at arcade.
slacked very long, and talk about alot of things. we went home :D
My legs is super super pain, (heels killing)

over all i enjoyed yea? laughs, today's everything thanks to ,
duck, darlinqq and heihei ! Big credits, DUCKY :D

boyfriend,
I want to know how you feel after reading the letter i give to you today.
I hope you like it. I just wan you to know, how much i need you.
how much i need you by side. always remember our promise.
The feeling will never fade, i promise. There's so much to say.
There's so many places i want to go with you. Holding my hands
walk in streets, laughing and smiling all the way, words will never stop
and accompany where ever you go. I hope next year, next next year,
next next next year , every month 27 i can still hold your hands and
madly inlove.

I hope.

Today, 26April.
- Busy.

Sorry people for not updating, i just gona do a quick and simple one for
yesterday :]

Yesterday is friday right?
let me recall abit.. Ahhs, yesterday during D&T i help bestie buddy do his project.
and i didn't do mine. Like funny =.= Mr lee keep ask me, where is yours?
mine is wood so difficult la! Okays, and we having a trip to orchard right?
and i forget that i have Car sick, whatever it is.
my whole body is feeling damn unwell, and keep feel like vomitting.
and reach there, there's alot of handsome guy, and pretty lady.
they are really super good looking, but they are dao till max!
I hate them so muuch mans! And we came back, have to sit that idiot bus again.

This time, i feel even more uncomfortable cause this time like change driver or what.
the bus like boat (i know i'm weak) And i really feel like vomiting.
i went to bubble tea shop and wait for boyfriend wait and wait, until i really
can't bear with it, i really feel damn unwell, so i went home myself.
(sorry hubby) and i reach home. i was Lying down on the floor.
after awhile i feel much better. and i have to accompany parents to temple
i totally forget about it! and so bath, changed and doll up went to bedok.
and i kana scolding -.- by my lifeless aunty. Don't feel like mentioning.
she is totally suck ,i can say. and when i come back from the temple, shawn's dad sends us home. Cause my dad help him alot about the thing?
and i feeling ain't well, cause yesterday i just eat during, recess, and a 9 fish balls, 3 nuggets . Thats all.
And i really feel very sick! and i really don't feel like eating anything, so i went
to bed :D

Today is Saturday !
i went to temple early in the morning, 7 oclock.
(i guess people is still sleeping) and i'm crazy or what, i can choose
not to go. but i still go (craps) cause something will happen today,
that make me really curious. when i reach there, i saw shawn lying on the
chair sleeping, due to fever yea? he like going faint like that, when he woke up.
i twist at him, he smile and go back to sleep.(laugh) i saw huimin jiejie today,
ohmyt, she is dammn chio, i swear ! her hair is sper long la! (jealous)

about 12? i went off and went to tampines mall. buy something, and like funny,
i was alone :/ and i bought everything, and meet xingan at tmart.
I saw ROUBINGG x.cutecute agains! :D when up to xingan's house.
and do those things we wanted to do (don't think too much) and we laugh
and start our madness -.- today we're totally crazy keep talking rubbish.
and lesli kor called me, i was wondering for very long. and he call me go
meet him at tmart and i was okay, cause alice will be going too.
Talk to him and kokhao awhile, i went off, due to some reason.
Well, i've nothing to update. few more hours me and boyfriend's 3 month is
coming :] (claps)

:] okays, i've done my job, some picture to upload.












good night readers!
Send me the best blessing, i want your love.
Until there's no tomorrow.
Until the sun will never be out again.
Until there will be no sunlight in my life.
Until the day, i stop my breathing.

Today, 24April
- Unknown lover

Sorry readers for the late update.
i'm just gona do a simple update, cause i have to help darlinqq
do something. sorry sorry okays?

hmms, today morning boyfriend sends me to school. and its sounds great right?
Hahs, of course! Early in the morning mr wong goes crazy.
Starting to talk to himself, like scary -.-
and CPA, today is the last day of our course work, yay mans!
but have alot of things i haven done. but it's okay :] Hohos.

After that is PE, playing badminton alone. like emo siols.
actually no lah. cause the rest of my classmate is playing other games.
and recessssssssssssssssssssss. okays, nothing much happen.

Cleaning time! today star lesson is cleaning table for exam .
(8 more days, maths exam) ohmyt. okays, okays, and chunkee and co.
bully me lahxsxs! call me wipe for them, make until my whole shirt is that
wash table thingy. ohmy, and make them a bit, they keep oi oi oi,
especially chunkee -.-

and mr wong, scold us for don't know reason, didn't really play attention.
i only know he scold us "chaocheebye" :/ what his mind containing ?
Okays, after that is maths. Didn't really play attention. Cause this subject
i feel more and more more more boring! more than boring really!

And after school le ! I went to bubble tea shop, awhile, i went home &
go cut hair with xingan, my hair cost 12 dollars. like never cut until -.-
Okays fine, it's okay. i go home bath again, and i went to meet xingan again
at mac. buy lunch and go up my house, do something, makes me crazy crazy.
I a bit crazy today, keep telling people " Augustine is mine! don't snatch!"
Amira told me, "I want i want, share lei share lei" i say " No! can not ! he is mine
mine mine!" i told duck and xinganfu also laugh.

and me and xingan is almost done with the something. :] great great.
Well, nothing much :]

Love, kick me aside?
No, i'll stick and hold my chance.
Tell god, i wouldn't let it end.

good bye, i want to sleep le. tomorrow have
a trip to orchard road from 10 to 12.30 (if i'm not wrong)
it's organize by my D&T teacher,about the business thing.
whatever ~

trying to understand

Today, 23April.
(up&down like monkey)

kick those weird attitude, killing those moody.
& i'm picking up my pink happiness.
understand people around me, and understand why must they do this.
finally i understand, & i forget and forgive.
actually being happy is better then being angry or sad rights?
anger and sadness can make you look like fool, idiot, and monkey
(monkey is cute) seeing me happy do people really really will be happy too?
today i realise when i cried in class, there's alot concern came to me.
& i feel so safe . that kind of feeling is undescribeable.
i've change for my him, friend & family.
i wonder if they can feel how much i give out to them. but it's okay
cause i haven give in my 100% of hard work.
(huiyu , jia you bahs)

remember, don't be too polite to moody, and attitude.
just kick them or throw them into rubbish bin. Like what i'm doing now.
Cause moody wouldn't be polite to you. Remember.

Wells, today lesson was boring. don't even feel like mentioning my D&T
cause i spend the whole period crying. after that is english.
Recesssss , and cpa cpa cpa , than star star star lesson.
& slacked about .. 10 mins? i went home.
i'll miss you people! :] but i miss lee teck sheng more.

Went over to xingan house just now.
Laugh' i can tell you we are like crazy girl laughing non stop.
Can you imagine ? *imagine* oh gosh! ;p
we went to buy lunch , (pinky, magdeline, xingan & me)
and we went into shop and save cause pinky & magdeline want to
have maggie for lunch, dinner. So we went in. And i was looking
at my beloved candies. I saw RouBingg X.cutecuteeee Ohmyt.
she called me & i was wondering who is she , i looked at her uni.
iknow she is roubing le :D & pay money , and went to xingan's house.
Hohohos, we start our crapping.

Xingan want to cook her noodles but she have alot of plate to wash.
I didn't eat what, so i help her to cook noodles *winks*
it can be eaten okay! :D and i help her cook, when the noodles is done.
she said " this plate of noodles is full with love " Laughs' and start our mad-ness.
Ohmyt, and we start on our " home work".

I did do , and it's going kinda fine :] Hohohs, i did do something okay?
Hahas, okay. tomorrow i shall be good girl , stay at home study.
*promiseeee* Nothing much to update & i enjoy my day.

give me your full attention, i want all your love!
I maybe selfish but my mind tell me, you're the guy who i love.
I love you alot.

Good night night readers , <3
(raining heavily outside, tampines)

trying to understand

Today, 22April.
(I think i'm crazy)

Today is ohmymama so cold lahxsx, but lucky i have my cardigan in bag.
Today is big big rainy day! You know how big is the rain?
The rain make my shoes wet wet wett ! ):
and morning, i went to school with xingan, darlinqq and cher.
Me and xingan share one umbrella & cher and darlinqq share one.
Me and xingan busying chitchatting didn't notice that there's water on the side of the road.
And the care go splash! Ohmyt, xingan and my leg goes , really wet.

Today lesson was ohmygod boring & i'm wasting paper the whole day.
My hands is really really pain /: Today will be going to study again (i guess)
Lets see how things goes :D

There's so much weird stuff which people doesn't even act like themselves lah
Like one of my classmate, remember my previous post, i mention that he say that
i'm racist ? Lols, Today he just walk to my table (i'm my class , so called "mamashop")
Cause i have lots of stuff in my school bag, and he just came to my table
looking at me, and take that packet of sweets & put into his mouth.
Sometime i really wonder that, do he remember those idiot words he said ?
Just last week you know? I doesn't even believe that he forget about it.

And next i told cher (with a loud voice) & i said
"I told that i'm racist? Not scare i put some poison or something in the sweet?"
He turn and say whatever to my other classmate. Seriously this kind of people
is just acting cute, but in a fact, they seriously look disgusting. Disgracing mans!
I can't believe that i have this kind of "classmate"

Oh, shutup, i just not gona care him for the rest of my life in EVSS
(or even ITE) Laughoutloud! *slap*
Once again, that person is IMRAN ! i hate him to max max max


I Love Boyfriend, Xingan, Darlinqq, Xinai ! :D

Create your own Friend Test here

Hey people, reeaders gans & all my beloved
Do this test and tell me how much you understand me!
Tag my tag board alrights?

Must do : Boyfriend, Xingan & Darling

Hope : Cutecute, lover, & all my gans!

MY DIDI FAIL ! GET 10/100 see how good is my brother!

exam sucks big time.

Today, 21April.
(Happy 6 month sherri cutecute & johnny)

Today today i forget that i've maths test x: And so happily went to school.
Wells, this few days i'm kinda heaty. My troat is killing me manxsxs!
Ohmyt. Exam is postpone to 30 :D:D I've two more day to study !
& Oh please huhs, i can't force myself to stare at a book for weeks!
I'm gona be crazy mansxsx! Don't doubt, i'm booked this whole week.
I have no time for myself -.- Sorry beloveds if i neglected you guys,
i'll be free after my exam okays( Maybe not -.-) Cause i have to stay back
for D&T until the end of may. (unless i finish my work or drop d&t or something)
Laugh' hope i wouldn't be tired until fall sick & faint .

I'll still be online-ing as usual, will still be blogging everyday.
(I don't blog i'll die mansxsx!) :/ To my boyfriend,
This sunday ! Gagaggas :] And xingan sat sat ! :D:D
I WILL MISS ALL OF MY GANS , READERS & OF COURSE.
Lee Teck Sheng Augustine my boyfriend :D

Just study at tmart mac with darlinqq simin. Laughs ! We study for hours
and start crapping. Saying this and that. Laughs! :p We went to tampines mall
to get my cystal for handphone & cover for her phone. Hahhas.
Tml will be studying agains :] Hohohos.

One picture that day we took in ikea :D



Thats all :]

Today , 20April.

Today I'm going to buy my new phone, acturally there's a phone,
i like it alot (the one yesterday i saw in MRT) but, god is fair,
the phone is out of stock and the stock will never come again.
:'] Sad yea? but it's okay. I bought my new phone which is, w910i.
Stop commenting about this phone. i know it's bad and whatever.
But it's just too nice until daddy let me buy :]
I didn't buy the red one, black one, or the bronze one. I bought the white one.
Can you imagine how nice is the white one ? *Evil laugh*
I'm so inlove with it, but too bad (it still can't replace my w580i)

Tomorrow is school day, and one more week counting from now, is mid year examination.
I really feel like shouting " SIAN " Ohmy, Exam you totally sucks!
Sucks like, hundred thousands million times!

And mummy say that i'm naughty, i don't know why she say that.
Maybe just for not allowing me to go out. Well it's okay. I can still see my
boyfriend tomorrow (maybe) :] it's okay if he can't get up, i'll still love him
& miss him as before , no more than before :]

Today , 20April.

Today I'm going to buy my new phone, actually there's a phone,
i like it a lot (the one yesterday i saw in MRT) but, god is fair,
the phone is out of stock and the stock will never come again.
:'] Sad yea? but it's okay. I bought my new phone which is, w910i.
Stop commenting about this phone. i know it's bad and whatever.
But it's just too nice until daddy let me buy :]
I didn't buy the red one, black one, or the bronze one. I bought the white one.
Can you imagine how nice is the white one ? *Evil laugh*
I'm so in love with it, but too bad (it still can't replace my w580i)

Tomorrow is school day, and one more week counting from now, is mid year examination.
I really feel like shouting " SIAN " Ohmy, Exam you totally sucks!
Sucks like, hundred thousands million times!

And mummy say that I'm naughty, i don't know why she say that.
Maybe just for not allowing me to go out. Well it's okay. I can still see my
boyfriend tomorrow (maybe) :] it's okay if he can't get up, I'll still love him
& miss him as before. No, more than before :]


Big big loves!

Today, 19April.

Today when to ikea, and giant.
We went to ikea because we are wanted to get something *
from there. And it's really funny, we keep, this one lahxs, don't want lahxsx.
Laughs! And decided to buy four small bottle, For boyfriend yea.?
Meaning me , xingan, xiuyi & pinky, one each :]
and well well, we went to giant. Xiuyi wanted to buy something for her art.
Fruits, so we like become aunty, hand holding alot of plastic bags with fruits.
Laughs, imagine full of aunty was there choosing fruits , there's two teenage there
choosing fruits too. Isn't it funny ? *laughoutloud*

And finally, we decided to go home. And the bus was really long!
and we start craping . Hahhas. And tomorrow I'll be getting my phone.
I hope it's the right one i want :] Okays, walk the whole day.
My heels is killing me. And readers, sorry for promising to update picture.
I forget that my phone's camera is really really sucks. (N81)
Promise to update new pictures when i get my new phone.
(*pinky, send me the pictures :D:D add me in msn b.mylover-x@hotmail.com
thank yous)

Exam is coming up, *thumbs down*
I bet everyone hate this a lot ! But people, my exam is just after
me and boyfriend's anniversary ! Like ohmyt. And Xinganmama's is direct on
exam, and xingan's is 2nd day of exam. Ohmyt. Okays,
I'll still be going out :D
& i miss my boyfriend so much much :]

I miss you so much so much ,

Today , 18 April.

Although Friday you can go home early , but to me it's really
boring. Lessons are really causing me feel like sleeping .
D&T is getting bored i told you :[ But i did do a bit work today!
Now , I'm having EM. Wondering what's that ? I doesn't know
either. Hahahs, something about business . And well ,
nothing is going wrong today. Everything seems to be so nice,
just a bit of sian sians. Hahahas :]

And peoples, don't have to worry about me. I'm super fine & i
will make myself okay. Have confident in me, I'll stand up &
when i falls down. I can't depend on friends to solve problems.
I will do it myself , solve it myself ! Trust me alright ? I know you
All love me, & i can feel it . Thanks for giving me confident.
I'll jiayou ! :D:D:D

Nothing to update anymore. I'll try to update when i go home okays?
Bye byes :D:D

Love boyfriend many many lots !

相信我，我会加油的.

You know something just happen ? And just after i publish my last post of
today , meaning at 10.07Am. You know what happen ?
I am just gonna straight forward , i know my classmates will view my blog
(or maybe not) & just to make things clear enough for those Opposition party ,
to know that , i split up two groups , Malay and Chinese
is not that i am racist! is because i want our group to win!
(relax relax) To win , all we need is COMMUNICATION. if we doesn't have this,
than thats it. You don't want to split and you want to win, please, god is fair .
And please , you think your words make sense? One whole group together,
20 over people, on Just one little tiny table? I though in our class, whatever opposition party is always right, and today, you proves me wrong!
And I just gonna say that , I'm not just angry & I just want you know ,
whatever you say today , will bear in my mind & lets see what will happen on
23rd of may. Wells, i am just going to wash my hands off, At the same time,
i gonna play my part , cause i need to be fair of my other group member.
& Anyway, i hate you, Imran so much so much to the max!

& thanks hubby for bring me home :]
my this naughty boyfriend, told me that he have to stay back today.
& i was at the Bubble Tea shop with xingan & co.
And i told xingan " Augustine 3pm dhen dismiss, should i wait for him?"
And i saw a familiar head walking towards me . Laughs!
Yes , is him ! And laughs , x: Actually not really angry luhs :]
Hehes, okays , nothing much to update.
Hope today East View Secondary School's speech day will be going fine :]
And Veronica daughter birthday chalet will be fun too.
(sorry daughter i can't go for your chalet)

Loves you, boyfriend.

It's time.

Today , 17Apirl.
(life going down, but i have to hold on)

You know what ? i have a bad family , going through a lot of problems.
But we haven give up. You might think , i come from a very rich family rights?
Sorry to tell you , not really. but the main thing is , i don't find myself suffering
from any money problems . Cause this problem is always in my parent's mind. They just keep deep deep inside. And i didn't really realise at all.
Sorry mum, and dad. I really wish time will turns back, but i know it's impossible so , let us work hard together. i know we can find back the us
last time. (ilovefamily)

Another thing is , sorry that i made you worried last night. I cried and
cried like tears are really for free. and you doesn't know how to comfort me .
And still come and tell me you are sorry , and this silly person is my dearest
him , lee teck sheng augustine. I'm really really sorry. At that point of time ,
i'm like hopeless and just need someone to talk to. and i doesn't know you're
busy. You still have to entertain a cry baby . I'm so sorry okays ? :] I know you
will lost with words & lucky the reception help us end the call. It really super
kang ga. but still thank you for being there :] i do love you a lot a lot a lot ! .
*kiss*

Last , my dearest xingan , xingan mama & cutecute , thanks for the concern
you all given me , i feel much better & you all saved my smile
thanks so much :] I really really love you all so much :] *huggs*

Thats all for today :]
Love you people !

当你回来的时候，你会发现我已经不一样了！！
不在依靠别人，会自己去面对了。谢谢一直在我身边。

whatever thing i do ain't the very best for them.
What i come back home early ?
I just come back and see faces ! This is what the want from me ?
They like me staying back but the real reason is
i doesn't even feel like coming back home ? PLease parents ,
i beg you . STOP QUARRELING THIS AIN'T HOUSE , AIN'T HOME ANYMORE.

i'm great in pain, i hate the pain

Not alone, i'm with you.

Today , 16 April.
(happy birthday songhan.)

today I'm not tired at all, can you believe ? I sleep at about 10 plus
yesterday. And i woke up at 5.30 :D I'm not not tired but so huper ! .
But today's lesson was really really boring. D&T is getting more and more
boring each day , but i promise to finish up fast :D Recess
was really crazy with xingan ! I enjoy my boring day. Today i finish school
at 2pm and my precious boyfriend start school at 2pm Laugh laughs.

This few days weather is damn hot, it makes me go ahhhhhs
Wells, remember to drink more water , readers & beloved !

I miss my boyfriend , So much so much.

Edit/
I stay back in school , cause YY came back for don't know what reason.
I'm not very sure. I didn't play attention. Wells, i learn something
new from him agains. once again, thank so much :] I might miss you guys
alot yea ? :D And nothing much to update.
Good bye people . i shall end my day here.

Love boyfriend !
(i find back my confident :D)

neglect by this whole world.

Today , 15 April.

Lesson was great , but somethings going wrong.
Everything seems going very wrong , it shouldn't be this way.
Can't believe eyes , and this whole thing happening &
going so wrong. I swear i feeling ain't good at all . Yes , i feel neglected.
Friends or everything . I feel neglected. (sorry)

It's my fault then. During chinese period , one of my classmate nearly hit xu
laoshii. This can't blame those express & NA look down on us.
Because of this kind of lifeless people , causing us looking very stupid.
But i still believe NT people are the best & they are clever.
& this guy , he pushed teacher & miss snatha came in.
And shouted at him like so madly. & I realise , somehow he lie.
Okays , not more details on this anymore.
& now is cpa , i totally no mood to do my course work .
I feel so irritated ! hhais~~~

I go home than update :']
(today i feel super unwell. I swear , it's not tasty at all)

i just care once i have it before.

love of mine

Today , 14 April.

This morning i'm so high lahxsxsxsx!
Cause my dearest boyfriend brings me to school !
And wells , as you can see my boyf. had his hair cut &
Xinganmama cut her hair too. And was like , She laugh
at boyfriend's hair & Boyfriend laughing at xinganmama's hair.
& the rest of us , laughhhhhhhhhhh~
Today morning was really great. Okays nothing to update .
Hope today's boyfriend lesson was good ;]

Xingannnnnnnn , imy );
(I want to change blogskin !!)


I'm back , with a brand new blog skin.
Although i did not change much but i just love it so much.
Okays, my brother is nagging so i have to cut short .
Tomorrow i'll update agains ! see you people.


Didi's phone rocks like hells ! I decided (maybe) i'll buy his phone :D
Although is motorola! but it's so coool !



TADAAA! here's the phone comment comment !
:D


Boyfriend, i hope we wouldn't dift :'[
Xingan, i hope we wouldn't dift too.
(hais.)

pisssss.

Today , 13April.

A basketball match it's always , 3 vs 3.
But for a love competition is , 1 to 1.

Wows ? Time is going very fast .
Tomorrow my precious boyfriend is starting school !
Isn't it fast ? Just hope everything will goes well for him &
he'll take good care of himself. Anyway , today is heihei's birthday .
i hope he enjoy :D:D:D At first i meet darling at 291 bus stop.
& take bus to tampines mall to meet Duck. & We walk &
peii her buy somethings , and set off to bedok. Met the blog shop girl.
& Go back bedok inter , meet boyfriend :D & we went to buy cake for heihei .

Rush to his house & like hahahs! He kinda surprise i think.
Cause darling lied that she can't go out. ;p & Sinqq birthday sonqq ,
cut cake & eat cake :p slacked awhile , Heihei's mammy say want
order pizza for us for dinner . & duck call the hot line to order .
He talk until very funny lahxsxsxsxs!

The way he speak English , he order & action is super funny !
Okay, after that pizza was here , they finish up super fast .
My stomach not feeling very well thats why i didn't eat much.
& I have to go home , from heihei's house walk to the bus stop ,
very long distance please ._. My heels is killing me.

& not long , the bus came . and talking about tomorrow's
boyfriend's lesson will be bored or not. Don't worry dearest ,
it will be fun :] I'll miss you okays ? Sleep early remember .
I shall see you on Friday okays ? :] Thats all about today ?

Good night everyone ! see you people .
14 more days :D:D

Papa is good in moood ! Laughs'

Compare love , I'm lucky.
Compare friendship , I'll rather die.

When things changes , will never never gonna find back.
Forever ? Ten years down the road ? It's all bullshyts.
You ain't the forever sister , girl. You changed for something that is
more important than me . Sister Forever <3

Anyway , i realised most people around us is hypocritical in their own ways.
I don't know what their feeling they thinking , As if like the whole world owes
them life ! Seriously i just hack care , nothing to do with me anymore .
Washing my hands off from her life. 'Cos , she doesn't give me a bit
of trust , what she told me? SHE TOLD ME NOTHING! People came and say ,
you know she what what what , blah blah than i know what is really going
on with her world . Promise to be the best sister ? But , you've changed until i don't
feel like caring anymore.

(Trying to understand , trying to put myself in her shoes , trying..)

Enough , friends are not forever , but xingan , be with me forever.
I'll see my boyfriend very soon :] *good mood good mood*
Take care people okays? I'll update tomorrow.

mood swing~

be my lover.

Today ,12 April.

No pictures to update, so flip back last year's photo X:
My hair is so short that time! Hahhas. But i like okays.
Wells, yesterday went to tampines mall, it's really sian
Hais, 10oclock i went to sleep. and it's really nice during week ends.
I can sleeeeppppppppp! :D going out with parents later.

I'll update, later or maybe tomorrow :]
Love you people!

EDIT.
moody swing!!

Can't you see we're no longer like last time? Can't you feel I'm
no longer that sister who knows you a lot? I wouldn't continue much.
Seriously i am so tired following behind you.
Yes, you did treat me as friend, but not so much like last time.
Compare to last time, now is totally change a lot !
I swear, you're no longer that sister i know.
Maybe you know ism referring to you, but i just have to say,
you're not that sister i know anymore.
I find you very complicating until i can't really understand what are you doing.
And for what ! It's isn't my fault to neglect you,
cause you doesn't give me your trust, you doesn't tell me everything anymore.
I hope you know . Not asking you to change, but just telling you,
things have change you've changed too.

Good night people.

I love A.L.T.S.

Love love, <3

My new soft pastel!
Today, 11 April.

Today's lesson goes really fast! Awhile jiu recess, awhile jiu go home le.
Nothing happen (yes, kinda moody) cause my phone today is sold out.
If you want to buy, w580i Remember! go to 201 and near by a coffee shop &
beside a Indian shop. I swear, it's my precious phone, yet it's being exchange,
with 200 hundred dollars. I swear the minute i saw my phone place there, It's ain't describable . People, if you really bought my phone, protect it! it's my fifteen,
birthday present )': Huiyu, please it's just a phone! Ohmymamas! ):

If i bought my new phone, i promise I'll still remember my w580i,
it's too meaningful to me.
Okay, *stop* About my new phone, mummy decided to buy T650i, anyone using that
phone? Tell me that phone sucks! Tell me 580i/910i rocks! Tell me T650i
sucks, only camera rocks. Zz, and my dad he told me to buy K660i Tell, me it's pretty
tell me it's sucks! Okay, mostly I'll be buying T650i, cause daddy & mummy
seems falling in love with this phone you know, like .. lols?



*point* here's the phone, gonna be my precious soon. T.T My w910i/w580i
fly awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy



I want this phoneeeee! So cool & nice okays!!!!! :D:D

My mummy is kinda cute lahxsxsxs! She rather buys a karaoke sets for me, which
cost about, 100 plus? Than a piano, for about 60 plus? Lols, she gonna suffers her
own ears ;p

BOYFRIEND!
i miss you like so many years since i last met you! @!#$%%^%&*
I miss you likeeee so much so muchh ):
Meet me at sunday okays?





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TADAAA! -.- i do wear spec, don't be too surprise

Today, 10April.

Today in the big morning got scolding because yesterday's taiji.
He keep repeating & scolding us, & PLEASE huhs,
yesterday's taiji is nothing to do with my classmates and of cause me myself.
(like duhh~~) And he keep scolding like nobody business! Like ridiculous la,
pleaseee! Seriously it isn't our problem! >:( PISSS!

wells, today's lesson was great, PE do nothing, CPA keep got scolding
& Recesss was funn ! After that is Assembly and now is maths. Today nothing
special going on. So i've nothing to update too! Tomorrow there's D&T
so nice lahxsxsxsx! I want to see my work! :D:D:D I hope today
i can go and sell my phone ! & buy phonee by next week



TADAAA~ this is the phone i wantt ! <3
(mummy is buying for me! i know i've the best mummy in world!
Thanks god! )

Going threee monthh <3 Gagaggs.

my heart is yours

Today, Wednesday <3

Nothing is blocking me, everything goes well & fine for me !.
Today morning read chinese newspaper, was really greattt ! .
Cause there's alot gossip of stars like, fann wong & angela zhang.
Time goes very fastttttttttttttttttttttt ! :D:D:D .(d&t coming up)
My hands having alots of scars please. File here & there, sand the wood
smooth smooth, measure to make it equals, taking my things running
up and down. & Well, lucky there's a very nice malay teacher ;]
He is oh-so-cute please, he is dam funn ! <3

Teacher: ' why do wrong ahh you? Gu niang la!'
Me: ' What gu niang? '
Teacher: 'Haiyo! i call you mark you didn't mark ahs?'
Me:'I got i got! there! *point*'
Teacher: 'Got your head la!, gu niang siols!'
Imaran: ' Why you will cut wrong sial?'
Me: ' I dont know! X:'
Teacher: (while cutting) 'who's fault?'
Me: (immediatly) 'My fault '
Teacher: ' Lucky you know how to say is your fault, go back class la, guniang '
Me: ' My work? '
Teacher: 'Leave here. gogogo!'
Me: ( Laughhhhh!)

I swear he is so nice okays! And after that went back for english.
Recesssssssssssss! :D:D together with brenna & jasnyn.
And now, CPA Hahahs, i'm so bored lahxsxsx!

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Today's workshop is super super fun ! i do enjoy,
i didn't regret not going the field trip, (and heard that classmates enjoy)
To tell my classmates, i did enjoy my workshop too! Although
it's just between the 6 of us, in the D&T room, i do enjoy myself.
And hopefully, i learn alot of things today. & today is Mr.Imis take over us,
with a chio bu trainer! She is cute please! So cute lahxsxsxxsx!
I swear she's not acting cute, she is really so cute lahssxsxsxsx !
And meet boyfriend at bubble tea shop
& nothing much happen! Take photo with emo-partner, joanne. Laughs! X;
Okays, nothing to update ! :D:D:D See you people!


Note: Happy birthday, Jasnyn meimei.


Hold my hands, ily.

NOTE: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROUBING, X.CUTECUTE.
& HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOCEYLN, X.DONUT!

Readers, my house having war yesterday.
Seriously ,i feel very bad over it.
Shutup ,& shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Okays, yesterday lesson ,was great?
Most teacher never didn't come, and some
familar relief teacher came in. & We have lots of fun.
And we never fail to make teachers scolding at us.
DingDong, two periods over. It's english time!
This time, miss heng never come.
And the malay teacher take over us. & my tears
non stop droping! Sorry michael & co. After awhile
i'm kinda okays already.

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After the 2 periods of english ,is Pe. We ran our 2.4 already.
& i did well ! :D 1st round i took 2 mins & 2nd round 9 mins!
I swear i didn't lied! Me myself don't believe toos!.
And 3 rd round is 15 mins! Better dhen last year.
And i was like wooooos ! Nice one! I'm happy with my result
pleaseeee. And after that is recessssssssssssss! :D:D
I ate a plate of rice with swimming poool !
Plus plus two packet of green tea. Rings , go back for English
again, after the run, I'm so dam tired! And slept awhile.
After that is maths lesson. Went up to lab B. I did my work okays!
I do understand what I'm doing, I didn't copy anything from friends!
imagine, huiyu throw her note book aside & start on her maths paper.
Asking teacher " Teacher correct right?" Like guaiiiiiiiiii ! <3 style="text-align: center;">-------------------------------------

And after school, accompany boyfriend & co. to school basketball court.
And see them play basketball. Laughs! Before that at my school gate
something happen very very funny! Me & boyfriend keep buaytahan keep laughing.
& Something happen, and is like i ran home, and my boyfriend chasing from
behind, and i swear that i just rush to bus stop. without seeing cars,
and heart just thinking to go home, i'm super duper sorry !
Really sorry boyfriend. Duibuqii ):

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thanks for holding me by side, and ensure me that you'll be there.
Thank you so much! Boyfriend you're important ! i can tell that you're not the last,
second but the first in my heart. I dont want to be replaced okays. I wouldn't swear
for nothing. I mean what i say. I will stand by you, i promise. No lies or something
hiding from each other okays? My dearest , be my forever.

I Love Lee Teck Sheng Augustine.

Sorry xingan for making you worry ! thousands of sorry!
Sister, i promise anything i'll tell you. Please do tell me
if anything happen okays? I Love Xingan, Huixin.

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To x.donut,
Sorry that i forget your birthday! How forgetful am i huhs, Forgive me okays? :]
I hope you do enjoy your day yesterday! I'll sent the best wishes for you! i swear i love you okays? Rmb to take care yourself ! Love you.

To x.cutecute,
My dearesstt cutecute, i hope you enjoy your today okays? Remember to meet me soon ! I want to see your pretty head girl! LOVE YOUUUS <3

Thanks god!! I Love Mama!♥

family, what is that?

;Lessons as usual,
yesterday i didn't update, there's nothing special
happen also. So i shall just jump to today.

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Yup yups, today ain't better.
It's even worst, or a little better then yesterday.
Go home i'll update, i promise.
But I've to see how things goes. If like yesterday,
I will not be blogging for today.

And hundred thousands millions of sorries to those who talk to me yesterday in msn.
Super duper sorry for not replying. sorry !

FUCKING NO MOOD TO BLOG !

(sorry i'm rough just not in a good moodd,)

I'm hundred sorry. really sorry to boyfriend. I can't see things goes this way. i'm sorry you have to chase me behind, and accompany me home .

God i promise you, but please get them back like last time.

don't understand.

Yes i admit today i ain't happy at all!
Not a bit! Yes, i admit i went out because
i doesn't want to stay at home seeing faces,
got scolding for nothing. So what if they are qurrealing,
We ain't their dolls to scold for nothing?!
We are humans! I know they are having lots of
stress, and they having bad times qurrealing.
But why we have to be the one suffering.
(I'm trying to understand ,seriously)
Yes , so what i try to be good girl staying
at home, helping to do house work.
It's not appreciated. It's Natural or should
i say it's like a must? Okays, just treat as is a must.
But i still got scolding, so what if i be good girl?
They only think bad about me, say i smoke, i become bad.
What else they can see in me? They don't even believe me,
& what for i tell them the truth? Good results so?

I rather stay in school, work till tired & go home, sleep!
I rather lifeless! You know it's really hurting to see your family
member don't even understand you? They doesn't give me the security
to trust them a bit, not even a bit. In front of them, i'll always act
like their daughter in their heart, what for?
I cry for them, cause their qurreal, go school cry & cry,
But do they know? What they see is just me, using comp.
I hate it mans! How i wish i'm really JUST USING COMP!
DONT EVEN CARE OF EVERYTHING!


Everything just have to blame myself, not understanding enough.

` boyfriend, i'm really really tired.

boyfriend, xingan <3

Boyfriend<3
dearest hubby, everyday i'll think of those
sweetest stuff, your smile is the sweetest i swear.
Love, i want you to love me, hold my hands everyday.
I want to use my heart to feel it with my heart,
Because i'm loving you.
I use to the life which have two person inside.
Because i'm loving you.
& it let me taste like donuts! :D
You really have the power
to make me miss you so much so much !
Because i'm loving you.
Be my forever, you're the one i want to be with.
I can't never, no way to leave you!
Don't want ,don't wish to walk out your heart.
Because, I'M LOVING YOUUUU ! <3

Xiingan<3
sister sister, your smile is even good dhen everything,
i swear ! With you arround, everything will be easy for me.
I have you to be with, xingannn <3 :]
Just a child's play game, you can laugh like mad,
i swear your smile really good!.
Xingan, smile always okays? With your smile & laughter,
everything will be great for you. Believe me trust me.
Anything just give me a call alrights?
No doubts okays? You're really really really loveeed!

Anyway, happy birthday Yiqin daddyyy :D

can't they just understand ?

Dearest readers,
Today ah today, is study plus laugh equals fun!
Xingan came to my house, study.
Yes we did study, but laughing will be more.
We did maths, imagin i face maths .
The subject i hate mostttt ! & acturally i
never hate this subject alot, i can make friend with
maths okays, because xingan, didi & xingansonson.
Hahahas :D We study for two hours, and
so we laugh for two hours (more dhen 2hours)
We laugh from 1 pm to now, 8.40 pm.
& We still laughing nonstop.
And some talk about xingan family,
It's really haahhas :D And and i miss my boyf.
please! Okays, tomorrow there's outing! Yays*
Daddy & mammy is still qurrealing.

Boyfriend, xingan, xinai & jiejie I LOVE YOU ALLS!

have i changed?

Dearest reader,
My house is having war,
And whatever i do seems against
this house. Yes, i do understand.
But i can't able to see this kind of lame
stuff happing in this house! I have enough
really!.

Don't feel like saying anymore,
today lesson was really bored.
Early in the morning, charmaine
xinganMama, make us high!
All thanks to the black cat, we girls
lost our image. Ohmys, we stand up the chair
next the table. Cause the cat is walking
towards us, and xinganMama went
to take emily's hockey stick to chase the cat
away. Like funny la! The cat run, xinganMama
jiu run, Laughs, we are damm high.
After school as usual, went to bubble tea
shop :] I rather stay there please.
Better dhen at home seeing faces.

Zz. Good night peoples.
Boyfriend, i love you please.
Thanks for cheering up, i'll try to give in.
:] Xingan, ai ni ai ni!


放弃是因为爱的太深
爱太深才对自己没把握
要用放弃作赌注。
输了，是因为对方不够爱你

My boyfriend is ohsocute!

Dearest,
It's not just only a lil note, a lil box
full with hearts & star.
Inside there's alot alot of love !
and i can feel it :]
Thank you my dearest, all i want is you!
I swear it's enough already :]
Yes, my life need you.
As long as i know your heart there's me,
I'm very happy already, I swear.
I know I'm needed, don't throw me alone,
and be with me, i swear it's better dhen another present :]
I don't want expensive stuffs, i don't need anything,
But just 3 things which is priceless,
that is your heart, your love & you yourself!
Understand me? ;] I love you super much okays ?
*huggies* you're missed !

./edit
Xingan came to my house today.
Due to some reason, we are laughing like crazy
From 4 plus all the way to 9 plus. Power la!
We talk alot things , and laugh a lot a lot.
I hope she is alright okay ? (:
Even a msg, we can say is exam -.-
You think how lame are we ? And we can feed
my kapo to eat bananas Laughs !
And we talk about songs, alot thing la!
can't rmb. Today my father cook curry,
it's okay, but the bread, is like fake de
you know? The bread too hard ! Dhen i put inside
oven and you know the bread become like biscuts.
Me and xingan keep laughing. And it's really weird
no one msg me ! ): I tot my handphone spoilt ._.
And i'm now talking to hubby,
he is ha-chewing ! I think he eat alot hi-chew in
the afternoon :D I

Click for larger view.
Don't doubt, it's me in the center.
Sitting like a funny nerd , it's my primary four
class photo, edited. Laughs! i dont know what reason
me taking out this photo to show my brother & allow
him to blog . laughs ! ._. i guess i've gone mad.

secrets-x3.blogspot.com

ti amo

Dearest blogger,
Yesterday was April fool,
I'm so naughty lahrs.
Go disturb a lot of people,
but a lot people prank me back.
Lesson was great today,
everything going super fine.
I'm tired to the extreme,please.
& some people let me think that is very bothersome.
He keep walking behind me, he is mr wong cc. Agrhs!
Is unable to imagine that I'm his student for
four years already! ohmyt. laughs'
I miss my boyfriend pleaseeeeeee.
He is sleeping like a pig now.

/edit
Dearest silly xingan sister,
Girl ahhs, everything is over le, let those lifeless things
throw away like tissues okays? So what qurrealing?
So what treating cold shoulder, there's nothing we can't
fight with. I willing to stand with you and fight okays?
After all we are still close as before. & noww, tomorrow,
next month, next year & the rest of my life,
IF THERE'S TAN HUI YU, FOO HUI XIN WILL BE LOVED!
same to LEE TECK SHENG AUGUSTINE. (: Promise
*Gougoushou*
I love both xingan & boyfriendddd <3
No stepping out my life anymore! Cause i don't want cry okays?
Hahahhas :D Love you all !

I cherish my boyfriend, my gans & my friends!
before i regrett, i swear i'll regret.
But those who try to avoid me,
Well just hope you all live well. Good bye friend.


If that was you, i swear you've change alot.
Yes, more lady more cuter more lovely.
but fakeness make you look sucks.
Somethings i didn't say thats why you don't know &
mistake me, but it's really okay. At least i know
how you treat a sister as. Last time whatever trust you,
forever, dont leave me, all is one word " Fake"
I bet you hate me because of some reason, whatever
shyt i neglected you, sorry for that, sister just end like this.
Be happy thats all i can wish you.

Be mine. forever

Don't step closer cause i might bite you.
But please remember ,not everyone will be like me.
This world, forever theres one & only me
is shouting, laughing ,talking & screaming.
I scare if i change to another me,
You will start to roars.
At that time ,you turn the world upside down,
you will never never find me back, i swear!
You will never find me back again!

Nothing will change, nothing will stop.
Hopefully everything will still carry on.
Pains, Joy, everything will still be with me.

/edit.

Together with you,
i feel the tasty of love,
When you step closer i can't control
my smile from coming out.
I will hold my smile for you, when you walk
away, I couldn't ask you to stay.
I just seeing you go. But misses on you
in my heart is never gona stop.
I swear it never stop before. <3
When i realise that i'm needed & loved too,
I'm really really happy.
Looked that you can untie the love the cipher
Like a minute your half chocolate feeling in the mouth was just good
Each minute per second has you to be joyful.
Falls in love with flavor which loves
After all i love you boyfriend :D