Unknown understanding.

Please stop imagine huiyu is a cheerful girl, she will heal fast, cause infact i'm not and forever i wouldn't be that kind of girl, understand?

Thanks for the concern people, i'm fine about yesterday matters, who call me to meet this guy on earth name, Lu ********** (i dont know how to spell his name even i know i'm not suppose to spell out) and this guy, Jeffrey!

Shall find out the reason yourself, time to get some sleep!

Regretted the actions

I'm so bored. I forgot where i put my handphone seem like i'm busying entertaining my family members, steamboat is my 3 meals today! It seem to be so bored eating the same thing. Tomorrow will be also eating the same old things! I gonna see my beloved ones! Oh yes, i didn't see them for like.. months!

Anyway, today those ingredients mummy asked me to buy at shop and save is funny! I was asking that person who sell pork, asked him what's the different in those kind of pork and asking him alot of stupid question trying to irritate him. I really not sure so i asked, you know there's a kind of pork which is 'fake' meat and 'real' meat. Somehow it caught my curiosity, so i asked alot of funny question like what is the differents, which part is it. Stuff like that! But i still don't understand what's the different. So do fish have fake meat, and real meat? Laughs!

Oh ya, do you guys watch ' The Wedding Game' you know what i enjoyed that show alot. I find it so nice, but quite boring to guys i guess. I watched with donut on 27Jan, it's a nice show after all :) Go and catch it, worthing you to pay the money for ticket, i guess.

Below was some pictures took on the first day and second day of new year. Out of boredom so i posted them up! :D

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Today is the last day of .. Jan. Will it be the last day i love you too?

我需要勇气

The broken ones.

-deleted the previous post is some boredom post-

So what's wrong with me? Why i'm so attitude ? Why i can't even bear my tears not to drop because of this little things. Am i really that spendy? Why nothing can really describe how i feel now! What the hell are you crying huiyu? It's just a little thing yet you show a black face and walk off. You think you very cool uh? And end up you crying like a child here, complaining to your blog. What is it in your mind. Can you just think carefully? Why there's such things happening to you when you are up in ite. Why are you still crying? It's just a little thing that you can live without. but why are you keep standing opposite with your parents. Why you keep wanna tell them how you feel yet nothing is told? Stop acting a hero bottle everything up please. Infact you're such a loser crying for this kind of things!

Are you sure that it's the best way for me? Why i didn't feel that, why i keep thinking you're just unfair. Why i feeling such unfair! You're not buying for me, yes i know. But i finally could affort to buy myself, but non agree. Even my course you don't agree at all. You always said that it's just a suggestion, but to me, it's not at all. I'm not trying to blame you but infact this is really a big, HUGE disappointment to me. Cause i'm doing something that non of my close one, my love one agree. Everyone is telling me how useless is that something i'm doing. How i feel inside did you ever ever think before? I'm will not judge by the view i'm standing at. I know you feel hurting when i show a black face and disagree, and blame you for not understanding, supporting me. For me, it's more hurting.

Why i can feel so happy one word like, work more harder ok, dont give up my dear. Why i can be such happy? I know, junkiat is more clever than me since small, he is much more loveable, even me myself couldn't deny his talent, what about me? I'm totally nothing compare to him. I'm nothing just a kind of wood. His music talent is great, his studies is great, his gaming skill is great too. What about me? Music skill is bad, studies is even bad, gaming skill totally noob to it! but what i can say is, everything i tried my best before. Know why i always give things up easily? Cause NO ONE. NON OF my family is giving me support. People, feeling very funny to hear that? I always stated i have a very nice and fun home. But me myself don't feel happy in the out of 100, 90 days i'm blaming myself not being well. I'm so lousy i guess Laughs!

People just let me throw everything here alright? I'm feeling really terrible now, just because of somethings. I couldn't mention here cause some example is shown to me the previous week. I guess i will still act like a hero bottle this up.

Any kind soul able to call me, and joke with me so that my tears wouldn't drop? (Just joking)

Sick of unspoken languages.

Sick of tired looks, understand me for goodness sake

I know people are waiting for me to upload those pictures up. So ya, i'm gonna upload all of them today! I find hard for me to find a free time to sit down, and settle my blogskin. I seriously need a desktop for this. Cause my lappy will sure hang me up and nothing can be done. So stick with this first. Anyway, today was much better, but PCS was thumbs down, over all i still prefer miss ang. Ya, went to school for cca early in the morning, went there was doing cashier. Was joking with the malay guy there. He is so funny. Went off at 10am. The 1 hour seem to pass really fast actually. Went over to interchange to meet lu, zhengwei, joanne, jiajia and weilun. As usual, long john again. Happen quite a number of funny things.

Went to school early cause i want to collect my phone. Find miss ang at the lecture office and followed her to her car cause she put in her car. Today Miss Hong lesson was great i can say. I couldn't deny that she teach with smile on face will be better than her frown. (duhh) Ok, ya Fyfe washed my hair and i look really unglam i guess. Fyfe washed three times cause miss hong keep asked her to re-wash. Now my hair still have the shampoo smell, though i shampoo my hair just now! She was really in a good mood, and dismiss us early. Went to cafe one to have a drink i think, and went for miss ang lesson. Due to some workshop she have to attend, so Miss robinson replaced her instead.

I find her english were really hard to understand, even though her english was just some simple one. I just don't really understand what she was trying to teach actually laughs! But still can understand a number of it. So you know why is it thumbs down already? After that went home alone and i'm so tired now. Guess i didn't sleep enough for the past two days! So i must charge it back ok! :o End here than, people here are your pictures! :]

&& BYE :p

Emotion like mad

Such a emotional day today! Laughs, i couldn't stand myself being so quite. That's all. So ya I'm just testing myself how long can i last not talking and how emo i can be. So believe anot is your problem ya? :D Alright today lesson seem to be so short. Break time is so long long like don't know how many hundred hours, sounds abit crappy but i feel this way x;

Woke up early today, and i sleep very late last night. Ok i know i can't compare people like jeffery and mariyln uh, but i need my 10 hours ok! So ya, i can't sleep last night. I don't know what is in my mind. I'm so tired but can't sleep. So message bengwei, and i fall asleep. Meet zhengwei and jiajia to school, wasn't late! Great one, and i'm really so so tired! Copy notes for the whole day ya.

And this and that forgot what happen. I have serious shorten memories uh, so forgive me. Ya that's all i guess. After school changed went to shawn house. Feeling so sticky -.- i should have went home first actually! Laughs, ok well ya chatted with yeeling and joking around with some familiar peoples. That's all i guess?

Ok, I'm not feeling so well, so forgive my boring and untasty post yo? Ok, pictures will be up tomorrow ! Stay tune.

a little note to tell you people, bear with my blogskin now, i'm changing soon. when i have time alright :)

Don't message my phone. cause it's not with me x;

Typical day with a lil' surprise

Happy chinese new year to everyone of you who are reading my blog ya! :) Do you guys have alots of place to go? I'm so envy that people have so many programs going on later, tomorrow and the next next few days. Cause i have no where to go serious! ): Savee me ! I don't want my CNY just over with boring this word.

Well, forget it. I must find somewhere to go. Ok, i don't spread my boring-ness to everyone here. Shall end here and continue late ya? :D

Lastly, my sitich wanna say..

TATA

2nd Post
Alright, i'm entertaining the computer rather than it entertain me ya? I guess I'm just too bored, that's why i will crap like mady. Ok, chinese new year, towards kidish will be fun and enjoyable, but towards teenager like us, we will get sick i guess. Will rather sleep at home, or using computer like what i'm doing now. People keep my yawning lower down please. I'm so so tired and bored.

This year, seem to be like normal day. Nothing special only that television is playing the programs that never use to play on normal days, you will heard alot laughing and mahjor sounds. That's all i can recall about my chinese new year this year. ): Sounds so typical nothing special! So sad ~

& Clever people can find my archives ya :)

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I suppose that my day will just end with a smile at granny's house. Who knows XGBFF came over to my place and was telling her, updating her about my stuff. I'm totally relief more! :) Suddenly, this person who doesn't call me often called me and ask whether can he and company come over my house. I agreed. Guessing who iszit? He is Chen Guan Leong after awhile they reached like super fast. Was chatting with them(yazi, heihei and jiahan), and XBGFF went off so we continue joking around.

And they came for like a hour? They just left my house. I'm so so tired actually! Tomorrow will be going out with Beloved. Hahahahs. I have pictures to upload so stay tune ya! Tomorrow i will upload everything tomorrow i promiseee ! <3>

http://HottestGeek.blogspot.com O.O
mimi inside. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

Spare a thinking for others.

STAY TUNEEEEE <3>

What's wrong with me, got affected so easily! Where is my good mood went? Forget it, I'm gonna be happy. Anyway, went to bedok to baibai with parents. I finally saw ahyi, like one year one time. Laughs, and enjoyed talking with the adults, i don't know how many joke do they have in mind seriously.

After that went home and rest for awhile and went over ahma house for dinner. I was really tired and hungry. So we started the dinner, and everyone were enjoying. I tried two ways of eating steamboat, one time was the last time of my birthday, with my beloved, sitting on the floor and today we are standing, cause there's not enough chair for everyone. So they asked to stand up and eat. Laughs, sounds really funny ya?

I enjoyed my dinner so much so much, once again those adult's joke is really making me laughing like mad!

I have nothing much to update, so just be it!
-insert a sad face- I'm tired! tomorrow will be still going over to granny house. So what's new again?

Somehow, this and that. It make a different

Laughs people, don't worry about me due to the things happen yesterday. Though i still feeling very bad about it, but well, who am i. Like what cher go around tellng people, my mood will be down very fast but i come back fast too. Big credits to people who message me, people who chatted with me, people who talk to me yesterday. Imagine without these people, i will really cried till at night. So well, yes thanks alot dudes and babe! :)

Ok, will be starting school on the wednesday. Seem to be so short of my holiday, but i wouldn't waste it anyway. Today is house cleaning day, did you guys help your mum to clean up the house? Thinking back, last year chinese new year, my classmates made my form teacher Mr Goh angry and i was beside him and wrote a " Xiao Kou Chang Kai". Recalling back, one year just passed very fast ya?

Whenever chinese new year come, i will be pretty headache because i have to think should i throw this anot. Cause you know ah, I'm a person who have strong emotional, and i wouldn't throw those thing could let me recall things, and you know my house, my room is full with these things. Laughs, i can say i decided to throw them away. This like, those love letters, those things about sad things and the things that i might not use them. Ya, so i have to throw them away, just for the sake of clean. I will not 'she bu de' anymore! :) Throw yours too, cause it's just useless already ya! Ok, I'm crapping yo :o

Though CNY is coming in 2 days time, but i don't know why seem like so slients, no one is preparing i guess it's because this year is different. You know this year, my parents just intend to visit one side, that is my mother side. For another side of my father, i guess i don't have to explain much. Hmms, so it's quite empty. Such boring CNY i ever have actually.

Before i go into pictures, i wish to tell everyone, enjoy your CNY ya? And happy birthday to JunXianxian :o I'm good in mood today, i don't know why too. Yesterday i enjoy my cca, and my PCS class <3>

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Sometimes, I'm just trying to be truth to myself. & yes, someone gain my miss.
Not love/like but just missing that particular person.

It shows everything today.

Today i really have a bad day. HCT today make me stressed up, make me feel that I'm so lousy. I have been in this course for 3 weeks, but yet i don't know how to cut a straight line. Just a simple straight line I'm stuck the whole 4 hours by opening the four section and a straight cut. I don't know why. Beginning of the class, i was telling myself, " huiyu today you can't take short cut you have to learn this" And yes, i didn't take any shortcut, but i can't do things well :( I see my classmate everyone is bringing a smile on face and cutting the straight line, no one is complaining that it's difficult, but i just don't know why i can't cut it out.

I seriously think that I'm slow and lousy. Actually i expected myself to do well but end up i have all these. Why am i expecting so high about myself is because my parents didn't allow to join in the first place, and i really wish to prove to them that they are wrong. And now, i prove nothing. I can only say, i deserve all these and not listening to them to enter a course that i don't like. I wanted to show them, at least I'm not really lousy, at least I'm good at something. But now, i just prove that I'm lousier than before, cause even a straight line i couldn't get it.

Don't tell me I'm doing fine and great. I know that I'm not, cause it's not the ending i wanted. I doesn't know how to explain myself, but i just feel that i have nothing nice to talk about anymore. Do you think i should give up ? I dont know why when my tears flow out from my eyes, when my classmate asked me what happened, i feel really sucks. Yes, i admit i have the thinking to give up when i was cutting. I feel like throwing my sicssors on the floor and walk out. But i hold back and thing that i shouldn't waste my teacher effort on me. So i tried and tried. I still couldn't cut it out.

I think i'm really weak. You must be thinking, over this kind of things and you are crying like what. And yes, i'm really weak like whatever thing. When zhengwei told lu "5 year i saw her crying" I feel that actually i'm really not that strong. I mean, i'm not strong at all! As what mr ong told me today " this cutting is just to enjoy, not adding stress to you" But even my 4 section i can't even open it properly.

I just feel so so so lousy after that. I don't know how am i suppose to do and what am i suppose to do. But i have to ensure one thing, i really give all my attention in class, but i don't know why things will turn out this way :( I'm feel so so suck.

Sometimes, i really feel that being clever is really a nice thing. I'm not trying to judge things but i really wish to be a fast learner. I wish i have a brain that can help me out in everything. But it shows everything out today :( I will never deny that I'm slow and lousy anymore.

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I'm crying again. I know i should be strong, thanks people. I'm feeling abit better than before. At least i feel abit better ok. Thanks people, i really appreciate it by lending me your ears, and listening and seeing my tears drop from eyes, and giving me tissue papers. I hope tomorrow will be a better day :)

Improving the character to be nicer.

Today is the worst day i ever have in ITE. Sorry to take back my words, that " Teachers all are kind" I simply regret to say this. I can only add another word infront and that is " a few". I don't like this lesson STS, ok if i said it this way, it's quite unfair to Miss Beer. I just don't like Miss hong. I don't know why i feel that she totally bring her problems into the lesson. You know what, she keep attitude us since her first lesson. Like those kind that you can't joke with. Who won't get bored with her lesson. Though i can feel that she is just trying to be serious with her lesson, and want us to be serious too, but i don't think things will work out this way. Even though she is pretty, and is not like what jianping said, i jealous her pretty look that's why i don't like her, but she can't use this kind of attitude to teach. I know my class is playful and over active, but from what is in my memory, we are following her instruction. Maybe after following we do the things by ourself. But please, you know what? I don't really find a reason let her angry till this way you know. Forget it.

Ya, we don't have the care lesson, changed to another event. Ya, some boring games, but quite entertaining. And ya, went to that miss hong lessons. Totally feel so suck after that. Lucky after that is PCS, miss ang lesson. How i hope that all the moduels can be taught by her. I don't know why i just feel so interested with her lesson, maybe it's the way she teach. I can say i'm very lucky to have her as my PCS and CARE.

Ok, all thanks to Miss Hong lesson, i'm totally out of mood. But what i promised Mr ong, i will do it. I will pay attention more, i wouldn't let her ever have the chance to scold me again. And, this morning cher, shasha and me went for CCA, and learn quite a number of things. Happen to be very nice there, cause the peoples there are so so so funny. I enjoy alottt :)

Photos below is taken during STS, i promise to do this so i have to bring my camera around to snap people :) So by photos can you see how nice is our lab? x; I say this out, i think i must even cherish STS lesson uh? :o

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I Miss XGBFF too!