This year down, i wouldn't forget them.

最后一天 今年就要过了

谢谢朋友们

让我走入你们的生活

也许我不是你们最精彩的

但我尽力做到最好

还有 谢谢你们走进我的生活

扮演了很重要的角色

或许你不是唯一

但是我生命中最精彩的

最后 谢谢你们的

包容 安慰 支持 关心与鼓励

爱你们 很多很多呢

只要在我生命出现过

我一定不会忘记你！　



最后一天 当然要跟我的姐妹过咯

好了 希望新的一年能给我跟好的 一年

比如 脾气改一改 之类的。



嘿嘿

大家一起加油吧

要珍惜今年的 最后一天哦。

还有

不可以忘记我的 短头发



XGBFF'S 礼物

I will trust things, but things doesn't trust me.

As you know, i have changed my blog song. This song might be a year ago, but i don't know why i have some feelings for this song. Don't know why when this song played i feel a huge sense of lost and lonely. Am i suppose to think all these now? Or should i really blog it out? I'm wondering why i must blog these lyric out.

I guess it kind of describe me.

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气谁被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉 已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

Enjoy this song, it's stand a big meaning in my life now.

I'm back to here. I'm happy to get in the course i want, as i got daddy agree. But I'm not happy in another way round. why ?

That will be the last thing i do

Start packing my room for goodness sake, cause my room is totally in a mess like rubbish room, i guess. Can you imagine how messy is my room is? You can find anything everywhere. I couldn't deny I'm a lazy pig, laughs, indeed making people disappointed. Like what my mum always say, ' That guy you marry to must be rich enough to hire a maid to clean your house ' Well, i hope the future there is someone whom can really affort to hire a maid to clean up my house, that's enough already. Just for laugh, ok whatever.

I packed my room and i found somethings that i forgot about it. It's my dairy, i flip through and i found out that I'm a so typical girl, that full with emotion. I though that I'm always the way i am now. Somehow very stupid, very dumb crying over little stuff like, got dump by guys and neglected by friends. I wonder why this kind of emotion sounds very familiar to me, i guess humans feel this way everytime too. Everything is no longer important actually, future is the forward, no the backwards.

I found photos, neoprints that i love to keep in past, it's quite a recall for me, as i forget that theses things is still alive. So i kept them well. Now my room is much more cleaner. You could able to see the table books are neaty arranage, little decorate stuff are all nicely put up, and most important thing is, you can see my mini lappy beautifully on the table! V. That is more like a room.

add on:
I can't deny i don't like explaining, but i finally know, what i always want is explaination. If this world doesn't have explaination, things wouldn't get clear and things will get worst. I finally know all this while, all i want is this 'explaination' So people, if things that i don't know please explain to me, cause I don't have any special ability to feel it, or even find out. Just a explain, i will be a good soul not to bother you anymore.

I'm preparing to meet up my darlings.

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you

Take responsibility for what you want to see happen.

EDIT

Edited:
i guess it the time for me to reply tags

Lex . Lim Hwee: it works for IE, but not firefox lol.. Nvm i'm changing a new 1.. && bo link me
Will link you soon so don't have to worry :D

Lijin: Still haven meet you:(
- Don't worry dear, my next meet up will sure be you. Are you still working ?

x.donut: hao xiang ni oh! remember to tell me ur results of the course u enter okay! :D
& remember that if u really enter a course without ur friends just go ahead rmb ur future is in ur hair not with ur friends :)
- Don't worry about it, i will tell you when i get my result. Hopefully i could get in yea? :D

Melissa,: yos! it's been long since I've tagged u! (: Which course did u apply for? Hope u'll be happy there and make lots of frens. :D -*loves, muackx! (:
- I shall tell you through msn or message, cause it's a mimi towards blogger *winks*

XGBFF: MERRY CHRISTMAS !
- Late merry christmas dear :)

kamaliah: awww. i love so much gf. hmm. will be missing your smile every single day. sobsob. tc ok. =)
- I miss your wide smile too, so lets catch up soon alright? <3>

Sidah: So sweet. Miss eu badly sis. i miss ur laugh. hahhah. now its different.
- Why iszit different my dear, i will still be your best sister. The one whom others can't replace. remember this right ? :)

Passer: Whr do your always download themes ?
- What themes are you refering to, my dear? Blogger?

ruayngoen: :) pray hard for u to get wad r u desire for
- Thanks alot, hopefully i could get in ya?

HY: :P meimei jiayou gogogo haaaas.
- Thanks jiejie, lets catch up soon! This time wouldn't do any complaining. Cause i have nothing to complain recently :D

ruayngoen: hello pretty gal! think about ur course carefully yax.. hope u get into the course tt u desire for.. take great care.. miss:) love=)
- Thanks alot sweetie :)

...: u are really pretty, Dhat guy don fit you at all.. u will find a better one den him!!
- Oh, thanks for that. But who is that guy you refering to? Hahahas.

ayuni: relink me up huiyu. remember me?..
- Of course i remember you my soulmate, will relink ya soon.

Jasnyn: sister! tagged (:
- Have been ages i last saw you, how are you ?

cher: haha! ok its the drummer i'm saying! wahahaha! handsome rite?! omt, on tv so handsome liao! lol.
- Indeed he is more handsome than tv shows. So much watch it on 4 Jan, if i'm not wrong, it will be on 8oclock channel u.

Lex . LiM HwEE: Hi! nice to meet you, whats ur name? =x
- Hi, nice to meet you too, my name is DYM :)

samantha: ok..got it. will msg u later sweetheart. and all the best for ur n lvl results=)
- Thanks alot my cousin, ^^v

cher: nono! i'm not ><
- Growing.. don't deny it. please

+[malindaa]+: relinkk ,oo alriight.leave mii ur blogger email on msn ...thankk
- My email is, b.mylover-x@hotmail.com

serene: lovely lady~ i miss you ! takecare<333
- Yea, i miss you too! Happen to bang into each other recently ya?

jk: jie, don't sad ehs ! cheerup ! (:
- I will if you tag me everyday ;p that will be the best medicine ya?

AaRoN: jun kiat jiie jiie link me xP
- Will link you soon! See ya alright?

cher: mad lady! is u have grown short! not i grow tall! bleh! xD
- I'm growing short actually, from 158 to 157. Laughs

kokhao: woo here to tag ur bloogg.. dun knw hw long nv tag ur blog liao XD...
- Ya, so you better tag everyday to repay a kind soul like me.

P/S those who need me to relink and link, i try to do it by today. Pardon me for the delaying :)

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What happen to me, i'm so in a mood that is green and red! I'm so envious people that having some kind of .. 'family Christmas'. The better is prepare some kind of present that surpise people, as in funny surprise! I guess that will be great if could celebrate in a house with yellow lights, green and red christmas tree and at the bottom of the tree, there is alot of present wrapping with silver and red wrappers! Woo, that is what Christmas is! (:

Afew days ahead, will be a brand new year, 09'. I wonder what will happen again and again, letting me to pass my year fast. As entering the new life of mine, bring just fear rather than excited. I guess nothing else i could change the fact. I'm kind of regret not studying well, during primary school or even secondary school. This seriously make a change in my life. That tiny twist and turn, causes my life to fall in a unknown one. Think back, it's really not worthing for a relationship to block my studies. That sucks so much.

Remember that time i was in a relationship, so many up and downs i cried every lesson, rather than giving my attention to my hard work teachers. I'm far back away than others, always trying to catch up, but couldn't. Even if my relationship is going well, i wouldn't give my attention to teachers. I will just hack it, message my lover, and writing those rubbish letters. I guess it's a waste of time anyway.

At last, i have finished 霹靂MIT. Yup all episode, i 'chiong' with junkiat yesterday night. The episode behind will be nice if you watch at night alone! I bet you will be surprise with the mysterious answer and the incredible things that will happen next. Catch it, cause it is worthing to give 100 ★.

Will it be another define ?

I need my beauty sleep, it's six going seven now. I'm so tired! One thing make me awake is the courses i apply for, the result is out. As i .. quite happy that i could go into the course, but .. I seem to have a feeling of forced. I don't know why.

If buddy and chunkee getting into the course than i go bahs ?

Things always going this way

Should i have the mood like how others treated Christmas?
I'm so sorry to say santa, i don't wish to celebrate it at all, but could you give me my wish?
I wish for .. i told you just now. Hope you can grand true it.

Actually, i hate that thing so much, seriously. I couldn't deny the hate towards it, but i really hate it when things got wrong. What's really wrong man? Why can't just let it be the sake of us and allow things to get over? What kind of feeling you wish us to carry in heart? Why can't say things out properly or in other ways rather than shouting, screaming and using F.U.C.K language? Maybe you didn't use those F languages, but trust me talk properly comes better than those ways i mention just now!

Because of this, i couldn't find any reason for me to celebrate this day which everyone is counting down for. Maybe i didn't stand at the view you're standing, maybe i don't know what kind of feeling you carrying when you say things out. But for me, it's a state of unfair.

Why you doesn't know how sad i am, how hurting it is! Why you don't know I'm the one who suffer rather than her! Why you don't know how to think for us rather than her? Why you don't understand isn't a good way to express?

If i really lost her, or rather you. It's means nothing in my life. So i don't wish anyone of you leave this house or either me alone. I want to be perfect, or rather normal. I want to be a normal child who has, dad & mum. Do you think that's difficult for you to made it? I don't think so. That's the most easy thing ever. The fact will be, if anyone leave, i will leave too. No matter where i go, just not in this house without someone.

Why you doesn't know just one word you talk to her, I feel so relief. No matter how bad is my day, I'm gonna be happy after all! I guess you don't know how happy i am when i see the both of you get back together! Seriously, no matter how sad i am, i will still smile for the sake of you all! But you never think for us, or for the sake of our smile! Whatever is it.

And now, all thanks to that idiot thing. I'm totally out of Christmas mood, not only that and totally out of smiling mood!

Note: if you understand me, you will know what I'm referring to. If not, don't bother to ask too.

Reflect the souls kind

(Reflection): Avioding or facing it.

Somehow i don't pretty understand what is the actions and words for. I always think that things ain't the show acted. Indeed you prove me this way. As i think it's fair enough for me to avoid. No chance, no unfair. When things got worst, no one will stand out and say what. When things got better, people will start pointing out the fact, the point which is wrong. Jealousy is doing bad. So what is the point for we people to face it. Cause it will turn out in two ways. Ending is still the same, so we don't have to do much changes in live infact.

I miss a number of soulmates of mine .. and the rest of my 401s :)

Life is getting even complicated. Things isn't going the way i thought, one simple thing had such many ways to turn around. Peoples' faces changes 360 degree in speed, so do character. I wonder how they do this. Sometimes they would still change story to gain peoples' pity. I wonder why must people act this out, and allowing souls talking bad about her/him. When fact is shown, they use another lie to cover it. Cause telling a lie, you need to tell a thousand, million lies to cover this lie.

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Time pass by, another tomorrow is coming

Another tired day i had. Woke up at 7 today. Ahboon korkor send us to changi village to have breakfast! The naksi lemak is nice! Went to take the boat to Pulua Ubin the place we gonna spend the half day. Reached and 16 of us rent our bicycle and set off. Cycle here and there, it's quite enjoyable actually . Hahahs, and we pass by a drink shall and the aunty was rather lonely i guess. Keep talking non stop, and seem to be very happy to serve all her customers! I couldn't stay there like that seriously.

And after that we continue cycling i guess we spend, 2 hours cycling and jessy jiejie fall down. So called the police to drive in a car to send her outside. As all of us cycle out, took boat back and send her to the hospital. So everyone rush down to the hospital. Have our lunch there.

I guess the end of my day here. It's really fun in pulua ubin. But, must be careful anytime anywhere! There's actually alot things happen but doesn't know how to use words to explain. One important thing is, we wasted alot of tissues !

Now what are you waiting, pictures !

PS: i'm so tired ):

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(note: heart shape leafs)
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Sorry my ugly faces ;o