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Studying this few days, one day nearer.
all the best, huiyu (:
bye people ! (:

Dont wish to, but i seriously miss you so much.
this few days, im holding on to my words. but i still cant.
): why why, i dont know why.
Feeling getting worst . I'm trying hard .. not to let tears flows.
cause i know, once it start flowing, it never gonna stop.

Studying alone at home.

Stop the way you're watching me yoz ?

I have nothing update. So .. i shall upload pictures?
Cam-whore kind of lots with xingan ! :D

(what could be yours, should be yours, would be yours, will be yours.)

thoughts: i don't use to the you now, i'm not really sure what to do
but you're kind of sweet ,really (:

Bear with my self loving, hohohos ..






Super overdued pictures :D


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Ximguahu, ximgua, happy belated 6mth anniversary !
Do last long ok? (: Loves x3

ok done done, good bye.
(http://distance-fear.blogspot.com)

Thankful day rather than teachers day

I can feel that, they are touched.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY IN ADVANCE.

Well, sorry for not updating.
As i think that i have nothing to update, Datswai.

Ok, as today is friday. So teachers' day celebration yea?
Gave teachers what i did for them, they shown those faces
that i don't use to see it last time. (undescribeable)

Well, Just a little gift, i can feel how much those teacher
appreciate it . It maybe not look nice, and it is like cheap,
but they dont see the bad, yet keep looking at it, keep
smiling for it.

Hall perfromers was awesome, especially the last one. My
buddies was inside and they are really cute la dey ! ;p

Went back t o primary school, Couldnt see any familiar
teachers that taught me before, but some of them only.
I also saw a number of old classmate and schoolmates.
You can really see the different between last time and now.

But they are still the same ? like to disturb me alot . Laughs
asked me weird question like where is kahwei this and that.
They can still remember things last time ! Hahas, Four years
I miss it damn lots !

Primary school food was great ! Nothing changed ! Still the
same old stalls. I wish i could go back everyday ! ;p

Hahahs, ok. Im naggy BUT BUT BUT.. it's my blog too bad
Hahhas. okay, some pictures to upload.

actually not really impt anymore.
though it is hard, but im trying .
I couldn't feel anymore.
Im trying, dont feel for me anymore.

Tags reply:
PRIS: Thank you my lady. I will ! (: Love you yoz!
HY: ): jie i have alot things to say .
Eleanor: Thanks girl! Hope to see you back in school soon yea?
Ahwei: Thanks you buddy . (: Get well soon.
Melissa: Thank you jiejie. I miss you please still mapling ?
Pinky: I Love you la dingdong, it seem like so long since i last met you luhs! ):
Jiaqi: (: Love you
恨Michelle ♥: Thanks wifey ! Loves.
Renee: Thanks steadyy ! (:
Serene: Hehs, my prelime is over, but N level coming soon
♥ Huiwen: Love you la niuer
Roubing!: You're missed yea ? since so long we last chatted. Lets chitchat soon
小伟: Thank you :D
Passerby: Yea, i know but it's better than they feel irritating cheering me and
me myself feel irritated too. But i will try not to be fake. I will cheer up
thanks for tagging anyway. See ya often JIAQI: I miss huat huat la!
VVanessa: Precious ? :D
passerby: You're most welcome dear ! Ok, i will but not soon.

Boring life

Hey, I'm trying yoz !

updating today ! This few days, i mostly wouldn't
be onlining often due to coming up exam (N level next week)
Recently my life is rather boring, Studying doing bad.
I having my N level next week. I suppose everyone
is preparing hard ? (: Jiayou ok ? As for my N level,
i actually don't expected much. I just hope i can pass
and go into the course i want .

And well, talking about study.
Me and xingan is like crazy at mac studying,
i suppose that those workingat macdonalds will like ,
Ohmygod, is them again.

Bear with it ! We just hard work for this period and
we wouldn't go there like everyday.

Do you guys know this coming monday is teachers' day.
And i'm sure that school will be celebrating on friday right?
And im planing a little gift for miss heng .
But my classmate don't seem to be interested.
It disappoint me big times. I though it will be easy .
But everyone don't seem giving a damn on it ):

(Sigh) how i wish i'm studying in girls school.
at least girls is more, thoughtful.Forget it ):

I guess i have nothing to update .
So i just have to end here with a smile .

Thanks for tagging my beloveds. Sorry that i'm lazy to reply them.
But i really appreciate alot . I will reply them soon ok?

Before i go, I just have to tell you guys about my new mp3 player :D
It is so cute please, i bought it past few days with xingan .
She bought the black one and for me, like of course is the pink one.
Let me show you



taken from: http://simplylove21.blogspot.com/
Cute right? It measured 30mm only.

Blahs ~ ~ ~

Ok bye ! (:

happy 7month to myself, i love you till today . ): bye 284878463

wojiushinamedexiangni, zhemeban? )':

Angel/Devil

Ok people, don't tell me about his everything anymore.
I dont wish i will fall again.

A serious speaking, past few days, i actually cried, and
i planned to let go .. But heard alot of things and i couldn't
bear to leave him alone like this. But now, i guess it's no
point anymore. So .. i shall just try to it let go .

Well, i can't deny that i still have this little feeling there.
But i shall just keep it to myself, not to think much
me and him, will be friends.

You know what?

My angel told me, I should let go for my own good.
My devil told me, i dont bear to, why must i let go.

Lastly, angel wins. I shall just wish him all the best .
Wish she will treat him better than i treat him. I don't
have much to say, but takecare boy. iloveyou):

This time, i really letting you go. don't turn back anymore. I really letting go ..

My dear friend, dont ask me anymore.
I dont wish to answer, i wouldnt want to say the reason.
It is all my choice, i think through lots of nights.
Can i have your support ? I dont need advise now.

I guess .. i can stand up myself bah.

Wouldnt be blogging often. Takecare people .

Sigh,

Thoughts: when it really comes to the end, fear. i became more and more timid . I'm not really sure what to do. But my heart tasted, fear. Yet everything seem like out of my control . My everything no longer under my control . I can't explain, i don't know how to explain too .

i still love you, i still miss you. Couldn't bear but have to leave but i will try to ..

Life: I HATE OAS, Deep in heart de tao yan! ): if you don't wish to see me crying, please don't ask me anything about it . Blaming myself for careless, first time, my heart feel so bad. -Sorry-
Don't try to pity me, i doesn't need at all. Don't tell me dont concern me, cause i hate you so much.i dont need any too. (:


-今天心情不好 x/3-

when i saw you, my heart nearly stopped at the moment. But when you and him stands together, i made a choice, i still love him. I totally doesn't know what i am to you, what you are to me. It may be just one sided love. But i wish, i can love you than him. If i could make a choice, i wish, i want to be with you rather than him. Sorry i cant do anything now.

don't try to ask me, what i wrote on top. sorry. don't wish to say

sorry, my love dont have a explain.

some one put huiyu into a big bag, throw her into the big sea.
i think she is shouting for help. Shark, please dont eat her.

God bless her. ):

People, please dont ask me whether im ok or not.
Before asking me, you ask yourself, if this happen to you ,
how long you need to heal .

If your answer is, im not sure, MEANING THAT WILL BE VERY LONG.
than stop asking me!

Cause you know im not fine at all! -.-

Thanks
Xingan, Huiyi, Pris, Melissa, Michelle, Eleanor, Ahwei, Pinky, Jiaqi.
Xiexie ni men. x3


-):-

i told mummy what he said to me yesterday.
Mummy thinks, he is not a bad guy.

and i said before : aku harap kau akan gembira, dan pada aku, aku sentiassa di sebelah kau

i know, i hope you will know too

Sometime, yes i am just trying to act strong, but i aint at all.

Im back in blogging mood, as i think my emotional shouldn't be hide.
So beware of some emotional when im blogging .

Past few days, xingan came to my house almost everday . Helping her in her stuff . And finally, i saw it so nicely done (: Huiyu shout: Xinganfu, ni tai xin fu le ! Me and xingan bought alot identical stuff, the next one MP3 player ! (: This make my mood goes so high up in the sky. and hopefully it will be very soon . Recently .. nothing much happen to me . Stay at home again , rot rot rot rott. Ohmygoodness, N level is coming right? One weeks time, everyone ready for it? For me, im not even prepare a single thing for it. But next week, i will chiong my study le ! Im afaird of those feeling that i leave blanks on the paper . Oh my my (!)

I can't deny that my mind is not in a mood to study, but i must jia you (!) as i know alot people is pushing me at the back, so huiyu yao jia you le oh (!)

Ok, lets skip those idiotic topic. Hmms, anyway, my dingdong's blogshop for contact lens is back again, PRE-ORDER3 (!) So what are you waiting for, click now http://www.magnify-ed.blogspot.com So dont wait . just go and buy, it's on 16.50 including postage now (!)


Ok, ive nothing to blog. Good bye people.

- She left, she need someone to make her laugh. -
To you: Please be happy, i want, i need your smile my dear.

Sorry and thanks post.

Boy, i think ive something to say.

Since 27jan, i believe me and you happen to met so many things together . Yet those many things prove to us that we aint made together right? What i can say is, me and you really really come to the end of this path. Two way, you and me will take a different path. I cant promise that i wouldnt miss you when im walking alone, i cant promise i wouldnt cry for you during the night. But im trying hard not to. I Love You for 7mth 2 days. still the same old line, i didnt regret before.

Remember that day i called you and said stuff like riddiculous ? I told you that this relationship, im the one who keep giving in yet you seem like nothing ? Till the moment i know actually you doesnt feel good either, im sorry for what ive said . But everything is like too late. Everything i know, is all from others' mouth. Aint you. What i wish now was, me and you can become very very very good buddy. This is what i wish now. You might have feeling for me, or maybe not ? i dont know, but i guess friend is better for us. I Love You but i doesnt wish to go futher than friends.

People told me that i shouldnt have patch up with you. I told them, not that i still love him, thats why i wanna patch . Why i will do this decision is because, i want to prove that me and him is really faded . I wish i can give him a chance to prove that he really love me, and give myself a chance to show him how much i love him. But everything proves me wrong. Yet my love for you, didnt even fade by abit. But .. i dont wish to ask for much anymore. I tried to figure out what is in your mind .. i tried hard, i still have no idea . Without me, live well, No worry for me, i will be ok .. soon. I shall, just stop here. Hope you can keep the smile on your face, i dont wish to hear that you cried again. No matter for who, dont cry anymore. Me and you, shall end here, Takecare my bestie buddy ♥ . (:

aku harap kau akan gembira,dan pada aku,aku sentiasa di sebelah kau...

To my beloved daddy, mummy & Junkiat,
Thanks for being there when i need, sorry for making you both worried and cant really get to sleep. Sorry that im so stubborn that i want to go back with him, end up the ending is still the same. I might not really know what impression is he in your heart, but i hope you both dont blame him. That day, i recive the message from daddy, you i cried. That moment i felt that im not alone. Thanks mummy for everything you have done for me. Though i didnt said how i really feel, but i just dont wish that you wil worried and cant sleep again. This matter let me really understand, im actually very very precious to you . Sorry for blaming you that you neglected me. I Love You, Daddy & Mummy (:

Junkiat, though when you heard that i patching back with him, you seem like very angry. and you even warn me what will happen but i inist going back. And you even angry with him, when we break up. But my dearest brother, no use. (: One friend better than another enermy. Trust me, he is not a bad guy. But still thanks for being there when i cried, or sad. Thanks brother (:

My beloved xingann, chenweiyang, dingdong & huiyi jie.

xingannn, thanks for making me laugh. Though i didnt tell you that iim feeling bad, but you never fail to ask me why. Yesterday, at BBTS i talk to you , i tell you how i really feel. I feel very relief. And thanks for everything, thanks for crying with me outside Tmart's mac, Thanks for making me laugh, Thanks for listening me crying crying and me nagging non stop. Like what my message said, I cant promise that i will forget him, or wouldnt cry. But i will try hard. (: one thousand thank you. At least i lost someone whom is really improtant me to, but i still have you by side. Remember our yue ding okay ? Me and you, endless friendship Thanks xingannnn x3

Chenweiyang, thanks for telling me what's right and wrong, tell me alot of things . What you told me on phone about my blog. I shall say what i really feel okay? Your singing is great. Those undescribe able talent you really have. And well, hope you can promise that sing Wo Bu Hui Chang Ge for me again. (: I know you about going 2 years, Thanks for being there whenever i need you, and sorry for not picking up your calls at times. (: Thank Yangyang! x3

dingdong, thanks for being there when i really need someone, remember i told you that whenever i see you tears will never flow again . Cause pinky wong is smiling every time . Dingdong, dont worried that im not fine or whatever. I will be ok. I might not really be fine now, but at least when i saw you, my tears will no longer flow again. I only wish to tell you , Thanks pinky wong (; x3

Jie, thanks for being there. Thanks for being my listening ears. Thanks for everything. Wo zhi neng dui ni shuo xie xie, i cant really help you much when you're down. I cant do anything to make you smile. But jie, hope that you know im here anytime for you. (: Jiejie , meimei ai ni yi wan nian ! (: Thank you x3

As to all my gans and friends,
what i can say is just thank you so much so much! I threw you guys atitude without replying your message or msn. Sorry. But thank you for concern. I dont wish to say everything again. So dont ask me about it anymore (: Thanks everyone.

Well, my post is full with thanks and sorry . :)

Tags replied :

PRIS: Alright, we will some day.
940: Sorry dearest, after my N level cans? I left one week to my N Level
X.sky: dont know, just feel like weird weirddd.
Sidah: You're linked sweetie. Loves.
Kamaliah: You're linked too sweetie Love you boleh ?
Ah Jie: ? you're ?
Queeny: Thanks pretty (: Loves.
Nisa: You're linked girl. Loves.
Ah wei: Take what some ?
Xinni: You're ?
Wenwen: You're relinked lover, loves
Huda: You're linked too girl. Loves
Ah Jie: Thanks
Ah wei: Thanks buddy ! x3
Vivian's: Prettyfair. Thank you my dearest (: i will but not so soon yea?
Renee: Steady, thank you ! i will but not so soon yea?
❤malinda: Aiai, thanks for being there too !
Madeline: Thanks madeline, thank you so much so much
恨Michelle ♥: Im trying to get over, but not so soon. I think i need more time
to heal this time. Thank you my dear.
940: Thanks x.donut :) i guess i wouldnt be alright so soon. Thanks for being there
Michael: In fact, im really alone
serene: Lovelylady, you're loved too, Takecare
Cher: (: Thanks for allowing me crying infront of you at wednesday. Thanks laughingparnter ! :)
JIAQI:DD: Thanks sweetie, but not so soon yea? Lets meet up soon
Xingan'sKorkor: Thanks but not so soon la! (: give me time to heal
Ck: Lols. not so soon.
passer-by: Thanks, but not really so soon i will recover. I need more time to heal than before, thanks sweetie. Do tag often .
♥ BABYSTEPHANIE: Relinked :) loves
Sharon-ting: Thank you. but not so soon.


Thanks everyones' concern, I wouldnt be fine so soon.
Will update other day, stay tune. Loves

-She left, quietly.-

in fact, i am alone

原来 我一直是 一个人

说不出的 伤心 难过

忘了 这麽笑了 泪 不停的 流了

而 你视而不见 我又哭了

Today, she have nothing to blog. Fine ? .. no.

her emotional is all messed up. So sorry friend, she cried again.

Exam is over, Thursday and Friday no lesson .

nothing to say & she left ...

disappointed ...

That day .. my heart is dead.

(sigh)

(2nd post)

为什么不是你。


也许我不了解 或 根本就不懂

单纯 迷戀 喜欢 爱戀 然后失戀

戀爱 变成可怕的 恶梦 单恋

等待 变成 说不出的 心疼 与 难过

每段愛情 都还不是一样 的结局

我 还是不懂


愛情 不是應該 像一幅 难以形容 的画 或

一本 说不完的 漫画小说

愛情 也應該 是一部难以忘记 的 浪漫电影

但 我还是不懂


并了命的付出 换来的 而是失望

就算在舍不得 又着样。


繼續怀念


抱着那种 期待 信任 瞒住 的心情

一秒钟 所有所有 就不见了

愛呢 慢慢 慢慢 的

退后

因为 失望


说过 的承诺 一秒钟 全部 消失不见

永远 可能 只是附言

流在多的眼泪 不一定能挽回

我 还是不懂

You doesnt know, how improtant you are to me, how much i really do care.
Forever, you doesnt even know , how pain is it to say this word
BREAK. you doesnt even seem to know .. It seem like, you're everything to me,
yet im nothing to you ..

多希望你会知道, imy

Feeling terrible )':

i might not really understand but i dont like ok.
Dont tell me you know this kind of feeling, cause
you doesnt even understand please ! -.-

School as usual, low low low today. dont know why.
And well, not feeling very well now adays. I think im falling sick
or something? Maybe.. -.-

Ok just whatever~ After school, went to BBTS. Slack awhile, and i
went home with, i seriously dont feel well. Prepare myself,
went to xingan's house. Than we go mac together.
FBT today! Like finally we sit on those chair not so hard de.

My backside very pain lor the pass few days . Ok, and study study,
Xingan going find charmaine and co. so i send her to lift,
and i went home. Saw alot police today.

sigh, i go rest le. Good night people.

Boyfriend, update your blog ok? (: Love and miss.

looked down, ugly, disgrace.

am i really wrong?
Why people doesnt know how disappointed i am.
and why no people understand how i really feel ?
why no one know how improtant the thing to me is.
Im more than hurt now, i realise.. no one really understand in fact.

You might not really understand, or you dont wish.
But i seriously looked down on myself.
It's disgracing to me ! Im disgracing myself.

What am i now. )':

I finally know ... )':

imiss, leeteckshengaugustine

I Miss You More Than I Miss Myself.

I Love You
I Miss You

Huiyu is here blogging like mad, im so cold please (no aircon, no fan)
Im wearing xingan's jacket -.- Im like so cold ? I think im falling sick soon !
Hmms, wish that i will recover soon! i dont want exam with a weak body, or
even wearing a jacket -.-

Ok, whatever la! Sorry my beloved readers, i dont have pictures to update today
My eye bag is like.. killing me ! I dont like please. Bish!

Well well, lesson just one word, Bored! Teachers telling stories, never
review any paper today. So so so, slack huhs? Lols. And dismiss at 1, slack about,
3 mins? I went home, i feeling low low low . Dont know why.

Ok, whatever~

So went home huh? Yea, and than suppose to go xingan's house. And we
decided to go mac, so meet darling and xinganfu. (;p) Study study,
i did study today okays! :D Hahas.

Darling went off, me xingan and xinganfu slack slack, after awhile went to buy
newpaper. And saw a page writing :

'No kissing in MRT or you will be fine for 500dollars'

Not really sure isit singapore or not. Lols Next time, no holding hand.
Craps, actually also good la, than you wouldnt see people kissing like
nobody in the MRT like that, i mean not those type of good bye kiss or what

Is, ... yaya you know la!

Ok, i guess ive nothing to update ? Hahahs, good bye bye ?

Oh yaya, before i go, tags reply !

PRIS: Lady, i miss you too la! :D Loves.
Ahwei: Finally ? take out some some ;D Takecare buddy
Renee' :D: I love my steadyy too ! Thankyou
Xiaohui: Thankyou ! :)
HY: :D I'll try my best on my maths yea? Hehes.
♥ Elysia: Aku rindu kau la! Lets meet out soon ! :D
Roubing!: Love you xiaocutecute
Huihui: Alright will relink you soon !
Alice: Thanks jiejie ! :) I'll see you and simin after my prelime okay ?
Qiuyun: Alright will link you soon ! :)
♥ Cindy: My dear, where is your url ? :D
940: It will be soon very very soon la! Hahahs. Love you
V,ivian's: Prettyfair! I look so weird and i saw you ! :p Will link you soon
恨Michelle ♥: WIFEYYY ! :D Love you la
baobao: Love my baobei so much okay!
JIAQI: Ohmgod, i miss huat huat la! :D
X.sky: hahahs, no la! :D Just dont know what to do mahs ;p
Kamaliah: Hahahs, Of course you can love me ! But ops, i love you more
Sidah: Berikan aku alasan untuk aku senyum okay ? :D Love !

people tag often i love you guysz lah!!

Boyfriend, i miss you la!
Dalam diri ini akan tetap ada di hatiku, Aku Cinta Kau ok? :D

CARELESSS ):

Tired day of mine!

Sorry people for not updating yesterday.
Well, im kinda busy because of maths prelime paper will be on next week.
Im not even prepared. I shall just locked myself in a room and study study study.
YAYA, as if! x:

Im abit guai. Ok lah! ): Im Huai Dan la! ):
Didnt study much really . Cant remember anything -.-

I'll try my best ? :D




yesterday, i went out with mummy and boyfriend.
Peii mummy go temple, for some praying. And i went to meet boyfriend at safra.
Though.. i went there before, i dont really know how to go up.
So, ma fan delvyn lohr.

And sit there, like 'xiaomeimei' for two hours. From 12.25, heihei and darling
come hahas! ;p Than chat chat chat, guanleong, xinganfuhan,
come one by one. And wow, like alot people huhs? Hahas

Boyfriend send me to tmart. Funny little things happen :D
Thanks Wo De Nan Peng You ! love loves



Ok, and well this week is review prelime paper. Remember the one we took
last week? and it's oh my goodness scary! Though i pass my english and
mother tongue paper, im not really happy with it?

Not really lah, english still okay. Mother tongue,
IM OHMYGOD DE PISS OFF.



i swear, You can dont read the rest of my post, please read this .

You know what ? My Mother paper, i can get FULL MARKS you know?!
Yes, dont BLINK your eyes, FULL MARKS. But who know what the
hell im thinking when im taking this paper.

Chinese paper one, question 7,

on my exam paper, i wrote my ans as: D
shade on OAS, my ans is : C
The correct ans: D

WHAT THE ................ i know !

BECAUSE OF THIS QUESTION 7 I GOT 19/20
LIKE WHAT THE ........... AGRHS!

(Relax relax), huiyu go bang wall la! ):

I nearly brust my tears out when i saw this -.- i seriously
think im so careless! Agrh. Dumb ass huiyu ! -.-

)': HUIYU IS A DUMB ASS LA!



ok, forget about those paper. I actually forgot about
that paper thing after that period la X: Hahhas, isnt it good? never affect my mood.

OK, whatever ! ~




PE, woos, badminton sehh! I play with cher, what i can say is,
her hands are really long. As usual, im the one who keep running
she keep standing down there -.-

English, did nothing. Chat chat chat.. Recess, and english again.
Lab C, take back out english result. i got, 38 (round off) and ..
okay la, quite happy :)

(My dearest sidah, cheer please dont want
see you cry okays ? :) Aku Sayang Kau la)




And take pictures pictures than roller blade.
Laughs! As usual, but i didnt play, lucky i didnt play too.
Hehs, than like that, like this lohr.

Went outside to BBTS, saw darling, was talking to her, didnt really realise that
boyfriend was there x: (sorry) and than chat chat boyfriend went off, i went off
too.

Than than than, meet darling study, actually dont want study de. Than
in the end also study x: Hahahs.

End up.... you know la! hahahs. okay !
ive nothing to update le! so long huh, my update ! X; okay la

Byebye ! :D

Xingan, Aku Cinta Kau okay? Dont sad sad ! Cheeeers ! :D

And, I Love My Boyfriend, Lee Teck Sheng Augustine.

missssssss him

What should i do ?

Mummy Or Boyfriend? ): Mummy is showing temper now . Howhow?
Should i go out with her first than boyfriend? ): But boyfriend alone
go sell his bike leys ): Hais.

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有

A little dream of mine, colourful balloons.

HA, studying today. With darling i guess :)
One more week to my maths paper. No confident i can pass.
But i will try my best yea?

Study time, buck up people. Smile when you do anything.
Like me :D



Promise, no more saddness.

I miss him.