Though i promise myself that i'll never ever post my thoughts up here anymore.. but now.. pardon me.. There's no where i could rant anymore.. I browse through my contact list.. I find no one i could actually turn to.. All i though of is this little space of mine..
Do you know how pain was it when you are left out, all alone.. that feeling is really suck.. How does it feel like when everyone around you got dotes by someone they love, when you don't even have one around you? Not even one.. How pain is my heart.. How tired are my eyes? All i want is just simple life, my parents love me, dotes me, the one i love understand me, loves me, precious me, my friends around me, is always there when i need. Isn't this easy enough? None of the above is happening to me now.. I don't feel love at all... not at all..
All i wish for it's really simple, every single day, without tired feeling, without a piece of saddness, just a bright smile on my face. Is that too hard to do it? Why people can have those above at least two of them.. but why I have none? I love everyone in my life, i cherish those who truly important to me, but why everyone have to treat me that way? Didn't i give out what i should? Didn't i play my part? Didn't i did my best? Didn't i?
I work so hard for nothing, I give my best, i do what i can.. i gain nothing at all.. No one appreciate me, no one appreciate what i do.. All i get is? Scolding, misunderstanding, and everything. Whole lots of explanation waiting for me.. what do i get at the end of the day? Don't tell me you understand all my friends.. cause you ain't me.. If you broke up with your bf, you have your family and friends.. if you quarrel with your best friend, you have family.. but me? I have none. nothing.. Get it? How miserable is that? You have them but they isn't there, that's the thing which hurts most..
Life is so unfair.. why others could life so happily every single day, but i can't. Just because I'm me? that's sucks.. i rather not to be me.. it's really hurting, it's really killing..
I'm tired of my life, I really do..
Crying to sleep, heart aches till the next day,
enough... it's really enough..
I'm tired..
Do you know how pain was it when you are left out, all alone.. that feeling is really suck.. How does it feel like when everyone around you got dotes by someone they love, when you don't even have one around you? Not even one.. How pain is my heart.. How tired are my eyes? All i want is just simple life, my parents love me, dotes me, the one i love understand me, loves me, precious me, my friends around me, is always there when i need. Isn't this easy enough? None of the above is happening to me now.. I don't feel love at all... not at all..
All i wish for it's really simple, every single day, without tired feeling, without a piece of saddness, just a bright smile on my face. Is that too hard to do it? Why people can have those above at least two of them.. but why I have none? I love everyone in my life, i cherish those who truly important to me, but why everyone have to treat me that way? Didn't i give out what i should? Didn't i play my part? Didn't i did my best? Didn't i?
I work so hard for nothing, I give my best, i do what i can.. i gain nothing at all.. No one appreciate me, no one appreciate what i do.. All i get is? Scolding, misunderstanding, and everything. Whole lots of explanation waiting for me.. what do i get at the end of the day? Don't tell me you understand all my friends.. cause you ain't me.. If you broke up with your bf, you have your family and friends.. if you quarrel with your best friend, you have family.. but me? I have none. nothing.. Get it? How miserable is that? You have them but they isn't there, that's the thing which hurts most..
Life is so unfair.. why others could life so happily every single day, but i can't. Just because I'm me? that's sucks.. i rather not to be me.. it's really hurting, it's really killing..
I'm tired of my life, I really do..
Crying to sleep, heart aches till the next day,
enough... it's really enough..
I'm tired..